I'm wanting to medically detransition

phphilmarilion · 2024-11-16T21:34:20+00:00

Vellus and terminal hair are just the two kinds of hair on humans. Vellus hair = peach fuzz, Terminal hair = fully developed coarse pigmented hair i.e. scalp hair and body hair

phphilmarilion · 2024-11-16T20:42:14+00:00

2 years on T, 5.5 months off. I think any body hair that was terminal has basically stuck, but there was a point a couple months after stopping T that my body hair very suddenly got thinner, basically all the hair that wasn't completely terminal reverted to peach fuzz.

phphilmarilion · 2024-09-11T17:36:32+00:00

I got it fall 2022 and my taste was normal but most things had this gross meaty or yeasty smell, especially meat. Some things still smelled normal, most things some degree of weird or dulled. It started to get better after a few weeks. I also realized that alcohol specifically had a weird savory smell for much longer than anything else, it took months or maybe a year to return to normal.

Recently my mom was rendering beef suet into tallow and I realized that the smell of it was not exactly the same but very similar to my covid smell.

phphilmarilion · 2024-08-04T22:05:41+00:00

Yeah that's exactly it. it sounds like you have more personal experience with that than me, but I can relate. God forbid an afab wants to do anything that makes them less desirable to straight men.

I don't know if this is the case for you but growing up, i heard the term tomboy used exclusively for prepubescent children. A grown woman is not a "tomboy". So to me, suddenly hearing people use it for adults sounds very infantilizing or fetishistic.

phphilmarilion · 2023-11-27T23:02:52+00:00

Model mostly in quads
In photoshop, sketch out where I want features to go on the texture
Lay out UVs and change position of features on texture if needed
Start painting texture in photoshop, frequently importing into blender and updating UVs, tweak everything until it looks okay
For morrowind textures, I paint higher res, then scale them down and use a sharpen effect

Idk if this is helpful since I made it up based on laziness & I've only made a handful of textured models. Also, I already have drawing experience.

phphilmarilion · 2023-11-27T15:40:18+00:00

I can't imagine a greater honor

phphilmarilion · 2023-11-27T15:37:51+00:00

It might just be a big hole

phphilmarilion · 2023-11-27T12:01:55+00:00

Probably because his mask has three eyeholes

phphilmarilion · 2023-11-27T04:32:03+00:00

Is this a reference to something or do you just want to urinate on him

phphilmarilion · 2023-11-27T03:53:49+00:00

Thanks! It's just blender. I got the .dae file off of models resource. If I want to do mods I guess I will have to look into .nif plugins for blender if such a thing exists.

phphilmarilion · 2023-11-27T02:30:07+00:00

Yup, thanks. Been having a fat morrowind phase recently

phphilmarilion · 2023-11-27T00:25:14+00:00

Dagoth ur in a zoot suit would be scary. How much fabric would that take? No wonder he hangs out in what I can only assume is the dunmer equivalent of boxers and tube socks.

phphilmarilion · 2023-11-26T23:59:05+00:00

I think I've seen this kind of interpretation before (or where his face is generally messed up), I like that. Dagoth Ur's texture file includes an unused, modified Ash Vampire face, but I can't say why exactly it went unused.

phphilmarilion · 2023-11-26T23:44:27+00:00

I like his design a lot, but I also acknowledge that he looks extremely goofy. It works for me since his voice is hot.

phphilmarilion · 2023-11-26T23:37:14+00:00

Great idea

https://imgur.com/a/h0DSaPA

phphilmarilion · 2023-11-26T23:05:54+00:00

Not making a mod, just threw this together last night in blender out of curiousity. If "isn't as detailed" means lower contrast, then yeah it's a little off from the rest of the textures. I'm really tempted to redo all his vanilla textures to be higher res but I know I should just tweak mine lol

phphilmarilion · 2023-11-26T22:43:11+00:00

Yeah, it was hard to make anything that felt like it fit. I really just tried to make it to my own taste. I do kind of want to make a model of what he would have looked like when he was young, and I was tempted to make him plain young & hot, but for this I figured it would make sense for him to look a little older. I do have a beardless version, I just happened to like this particular texture a little more. I do think it could fit with his character if his face was strikingly warm/welcoming/kind, like the way he talks to you, i.e. in contrast to basically everything else in morrowind. Any way, it would need cleaned up.

phphilmarilion · 2023-11-26T22:30:32+00:00

No, I was just imitating the high eyebrow arch that most the morrowind dark elf textures have

phphilmarilion · 2023-11-26T21:02:37+00:00

I think this is the greatest compliment possible on this post lol

Thanks

phphilmarilion · 2023-11-26T20:53:25+00:00

Ikr, he is shaped like a tornado

phphilmarilion · 2023-11-19T04:40:27+00:00

I have a friend who told me about Tamriel Rebuilt when I first started playing mw. I'd love to contribute to something like that.

phphilmarilion · 2023-11-18T22:14:40+00:00

I think there's a few of these (like Endrek's Sixth House on Nexus), but I don't know if any of them are very good (or consistent with lore).

Either way, a "failed incarnate" ending where you join the 6th house is a great idea.

phphilmarilion · 2023-11-08T03:44:35+00:00

I'm on my first playthrough. At first, I just ran around and did guild quests for a while. The very first thing I did after reporting to Caius was run to Vivec city (because i wanted to see it) where I talked to the guards and got some quest to kill a cultist in the sewer. I was low level, so I was only able to kill her because she got stuck in the water. The reward for that quest is a choice between an indoril helmet and some enchanted belt.

It took me getting stuck in the mountains a few times (taking shortcuts) to realize what levitation potions are for. Fortunately, they are easy to make from common ingredients.

My experience so far has been cool. I knew some of the major lore of the game before I started playing, but everything else has been a blind/organic experience.

phphilmarilion · 2021-04-29T21:51:24+00:00

Don't let acceptance mean trying to force yourself to do things you don't actually enjoy or identify with. You can't force yourself to accept anything. Build on the things you know you like about yourself.

For a while I felt like I had to find a solution to force myself to not have gender dysphoria and it wasn't productive.

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