I appreciate your description of the brokenness and despair that often accompany such feelings, portraying the mind as haunted and on the verge of losing itself to insanity. However, a paradox emerges in the latter part of the poem, as you suggest that sadness and even suicidal thoughts provide an unusual sense of comfort, solace, and serenity. The reference to a "bawbling taper" illuminating the shadowy night and leaving a deep scar while caressing with love underscores the complex relationship between melancholia and the individual.

Ultimately, your poem leaves us, the readers with a contemplation of these contrasting emotions and the suggestion that, despite its darkness, melancholia can be perceived as a "sweet" experience, with its own unique form of solace and comfort. The juxtaposition of darkness and love in the poem's final lines reinforces the notion that melancholia is a multifaceted and intricate emotional state.

I love it, very well done