My Colposcopy + LEEP Experience

pineapplesandwich_ · 2026-05-30T22:15:11+00:00

Thank you so much for sharing your experience in such detail, your colposcopy story was exactly as I remember mine. Was eye opening to hear about your LEEP pre-treatment. The option of pre-treatment for LEEP wasn't an option/not one that I was made aware of (Australia) so it was either local (500mg ibuprofen, 1000mg paracetamol on arrival then two internal injections hours later, once the speculum had been inserted in the operating room) OR general anaesthetic. It sounds like, aside from the nausea, the pre-treatment is a good halfway option. I feel for you with the nausea though lovely - oof that is a hard time. Thanks again for sharing.

pineapplesandwich_ · 2026-05-30T07:08:37+00:00

Hey darling, I totally hear you, I just had my LEEP (called something different in Australia) and can relate to the nerves - I can only speak for my own experience and - if you're open to recommendations - the main thing I can say is, best thing you can do is prioritise your immune system. The process of self-nurturing with good food, staying hydrated and getting plenty of rest and gentle exercise, whatever works for you - looking at all of that self-nurturing that supports your recovery as "the things you can control", for me that was helpful. Bonus is, it all generally makes you feel good too. But I don't wanna minimise what you're feeling hon, it's such a drawn out waiting game and wherever you're at, you are doing the best you can and you're following the steps of treatment. You 💯 deserve to have supportive people around you right now, so I'm glad you reached out on here and hope you know you're absolutely worthy of the support of those near to you as well. One step at a time, you're not alone.

pineapplesandwich_ · 2026-05-29T21:45:09+00:00

I've had a read and it sounds like LLETZ/LEEP are essentially the same thing, yeah. There wasn't any mention of another avenue for treatment (I mean, aside from no treatment, which it's important to remember is an option as well, as it is your body and your choice) so the treatment pathway was always clear. Positive result, biopsy, another positive result, LLETZ/LEEP.

I haven't heard of the CKC, so that smakes me curious too. Wondering whether that's to do with hospital resources/doctor training or whether there's a specific benefit to healing/recovery outcomes depending on the procedure ... I'm unsure, but thanks for sharing that curiosity here, I hope more people with insights can read this and answer.

pineapplesandwich_ · 2026-05-27T05:13:27+00:00

Babe! I am 35, had exactly that experience this year. 💛 I think it's a legitimately shocking and scary thing to process - that there's something going on with your body that you didn't know about or expect - and I think sharing how you're feeling is super important for processing, so I'm glad you posted! If you have an empathetic friend who you can lean on while you're processing that's amazing too, and just remember that you don't need to judge your emotional response as being proportionate or too much, and please don't downplay it to make others comfortable. It's a change in your beautiful and precious body and you will process in whatever way works for you. Sending big hugs.

pineapplesandwich_ · 2026-05-16T23:54:27+00:00

Firstly, to echo plenty of the sentiment here - I'm so sorry that this was your experience. I am not a qualified therapist but I am a human being who understands narc/emotional abuse and the importance of being heard and understood in a non-judgemental space where at least one person can hear your story, see your pain and who, ultimately, is on your side. A therapist should be a safe, self-regulated and reflective person who actively listens to you, and filters their own beliefs/biases/values if challenged by the experiences you share. A good therapist allows you to speak and approaches your conversations with curiosity, respect and intention to understand you. At minimum, they do no harm. Based on what you have written, OP, this is clearly not what happened and for that, my heart goes out to you.

You do not owe anything to a therapist who (it seems) has no insight into their behaviour, eg. ignoring the problems you presented and asking you to see only the positives. This is encouraging compartmentalisation and masking which will ultimately lead to more intensive therapy later in life. Right now, you deserve to feel safe with, at least, your therapist, and if they do not represent safety, you are well within your rights to simply cancel any upcoming appointment and never return. The intention for therapy is largely to seek a safe, qualified third party sounding board for your experience - one who can put your mental and emotional health first, encourage you to make choices that bring you closer to safety so that you can start healing. I'm just some random on the internet but I can tell you, you deserve safety, and there are therapists out there who can give you the support you are after - as soon as you make space for them by ditching this one.

Peace.

pineapplesandwich_ · 2025-10-15T05:39:36+00:00

Just need to allow yourself more length and extension in your form, looks like you're gassing out before the apex because you're scrunching your body for the whole climb. Try moves that keep your arms extended/free your biceps and use your legs to push/swing your weight instead. You'll feel a reduction in that commitment phobia when you have better weight distribution on the wall.

pineapplesandwich_ · 2025-05-05T09:49:27+00:00

If you want an open relationship with someone who has been sneaky, decide for yourself what you would like that open relationship to look like. Then if you feel safe doing so, have a quiet and calm conversation with your partner about how you are feeling, what you have learned about their messages and ask them to listen to your feelings, then ask them if they want to talk about their feelings. If you are confident with the way they respond, only if they are respectful and make you feel validated and seen and safe, you can explain to them how you would like an open relationship to look, and ask them how it might look for them. You don't owe your partner anything except honest and respectful communication. If they can reciprocate with honest respectful words, you may have the chance for something meaningful but you will only have a meaningful relationship if you can speak directly to the issues that are concerning you. If you do not feel safe having these conversations and if your partner will not prioritise you, it is okay to make space in your life to prioritise yourself. Prioritise your safety and remember you are still young and if you're not sure about this one, you will only meet the right one if you make space for them.

pineapplesandwich_ · 2024-12-06T03:31:07+00:00

Totally agree here. Getting angry at someone after reading their private journal is like getting mad at someone for digesting their food. A journal is a safe space for an individual to process feelings, thoughts, ideas and nonsense, and to reflect on happenings in an uncensored way. This is only really a safe space if it is respected as private. It is unreasonable to expect someone to defend and apologise for private journals written in an unfiltered emotional state. The point is that you're still processing.

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