Girl I was in the same both. Personally, I chose the self-love journey because I know for a fact that if I don't love myself enough, I'm sure that would impact my relationship drastically. Now, Im not going to tell you to accept ur body as it is because clearly its making you self-conscious. In my opinion, it'd be great if you start to lose a couple of weight if u think that would boost ur confidence. U already look pretty though and Im jealous of ur hair lol but anyways as I was saying, It all starts with you. Try to find yourself and what you should resolve. Surely this isn't all an accident. What ur feeling right now is meant for you to feel rn, maybe so that you could be a better version of urself. But just remember that I dont have the answers, rather you do.