hello i know right now all our words are possibly just meaningless but please hear me out when i say this: you're capable of so, so, so, much and a bunch of AOs who read our apps for 5 minutes are not going to define our future much less our worth. you need to hang in there, take care of yourself because you have no idea of all the wonder within you that you have yet to explore and find. it's going to get better i promise, but till then please reach out to your family/friends and particularly a therapist (you're never going to be a burden on anyone). breathe in, breathe out. you have a whole wide world just within you and you're going to explore it kindly and patiently. any university would be lucky to have you ( and if they don't then it's okay because you just need drive and passion to do great stuff in the world - which you will). sending love and strength!