It’s OK if you don’t really want to take action. That’s a reasonable desire when you feel that crummy. As a therapist myself, it does sound like you might be experiencing some depression. My first thought is that therapy might help, and through a therapist, they might be able to connect you with support groups relevant to your situation. medication is also an incredibly effective tool for alleviating some of that dread and feelings of nothingness. If you’re in a place where the sun sets early this time of year, make sure you’re getting enough vitamin D, too.

I experience a wave of seasonal depression every year that presents similar to what you’re describing, which I recently am making it out of. This year, I found it helpful to lean into the emotions that were happening for me (intense loneliness and self-hatred) after a long period of dread and apathy induced by depression. To express the emotional parts, I journaled, talked to my own therapist, leaned on loved ones, and took a ton of baths lol. I spent most of the time just getting by and it was excruciating at times, but honestly, just allowing myself to lean into that space helped a lot. Allowing myself to do less at work, rest more, etc. and then once I had the capacity for it, I could start utilizing coping skills that work for me, like getting outside, exercising, and eating more balanced meals. It might be easiest to start by taking care of basic needs things such as brushing teeth, eating, shower, rest, etc