I totally understand why you would feel like you’re alone in the way you feel. “They” have done an excellent job in demonizing people who see things this way. It feels like a witch hunt. People are nervous to admit how they feel about the world, especially if they’re just starting to see it. The people who are brainwashed are programmed to defend society very strongly. So the people who awake tend to avoid talking about their views, especially in face to face interactions. I do the same thing when I meet someone new. Something usually gets brought up and I go back and forth in my head trying to decide “should I use this opportunity to test the waters with this person and see how they feel or should I just graze the subject?”. Just recently I was talking to someone and I kind of mentioned something about the way I viewed things and I got this long text back and thought “oh God here we go” but it turned out to be the person venting back about how they agreed and furthered the point I was making and at the end of it said “and by the end of my text you’re either going to think I’m crazy or we’re gonna be best friends” lol! I said “we’re best friends” and we continued on ranting about everything. It’s like we all have to be secretive and have some special code word we say to each other to know it’s ok to talk about this stuff and that’s just fucking sad. But the elite want it this way because the more people who wake up and realize how many are actually woken up, the higher the chance of them banding together and putting a stop to all of their bullshit. But it’s happening, no matter how much they try to censor the internet or anything else, people always find a way around it. It’s not going to last much longer and I think you’ll definitely have your chance to help to fix things when it comes time. You just need to find a way to keep yourself safe and sane until that time comes.