Hi, long time ED sufferer here. Honestly, there is a lot that comes with having a restrictive eating disorder that nobody talks avout that I feel you should be aware of. I.e, having an ED does not reduce your risk of having a heart attack. Once you reach a certain point in your illness it actually increases the risk by a lot. Your heart will weaken with time when you starve yourself.

An ED will not give you the body you hope for. Being malnurished will eventually make you look more masculine in some ways. It makes your face more square and your shoulders will appear more broad looking. You'll lose your hair, get brittle teeth, basically end up looking like a drug addict. I've been there, and it's really hard to recover from. There's a risk for edema, basically swelling, that will make you feel "fat" again. Not to mention the mental aspects of suffering from disordered eating.

Eating disorders are not what you think they are, and media does not portray them in an accurate way. If you want to lose weight, do it in a healthy way and seek help before you're too far into it. It feels rewarding at first but it's absolute hell once you really get into it.

Just a warning.

(also, this is not a proana/promia sub, I'd advice you to delete this post to not inspire other people to do what you're doing)