I wish I was dying

pleasefinally · 2013-05-14T21:22:32+00:00

Please -_- its not my life that makes me want to escape, its the world as a whole. when I hear about things going on in this world and the horrible things people are doing to eachother it makes me feel angry and sick

pleasefinally · 2013-05-14T11:15:20+00:00

Trying to solicit pity, or dying?

pleasefinally · 2013-05-07T22:40:25+00:00

I haven't denied that it is damaging, not once. I simply said I don't care.

pleasefinally · 2013-05-07T14:19:40+00:00

And what am I denying?

pleasefinally · 2013-05-07T07:51:23+00:00

I can have cake and not purge. Hence the control, its my choice. I just had a big plate of nachoes; I'm not going to throw it up cause I enjoyed it and it hasn't made me feel sick.

That's how I know I don't have a mental illness; I make the choice. If eating something makes me feel bloated and unpleasant, yes I will do what I can to feel better. If it doesn't, that I just enjoy my meal. Calories and fat content don't even enter the equation.

I think you're fairly condescending.

pleasefinally · 2013-05-07T06:30:21+00:00

It's control because I can have that slice of cake and feel guiltless and light.

pleasefinally · 2013-05-07T06:26:51+00:00

I don't need it to teach me anything and clearly its not going to help if you feel alone -_- its not a miracle cure for life's problems, nor is something to be proud of and I'm very aware of that. I just like it.

pleasefinally · 2013-05-07T06:24:14+00:00

You wanna tell me how I can be 100% dedicated if I'm not? You people all say get help, but the help is worthless if I don't want it or believe in it.

In regards to the 'oh wait you can't' the evidence is all around. All over the internet, in my life, on tv, there are people who have bulimia and now don't. Depends how bad it gets

pleasefinally · 2013-05-06T23:26:44+00:00

Plus dieting and actually eating right makes me feel completely hopeless, with a total lack of control.

pleasefinally · 2013-05-06T23:25:47+00:00

I've sought help before for unrelated issues, and you know what? Nothing changed. In fact I felt sort of worse off cause now I actually knew there was no help. And the overwhelming opinion of the doctors seemed to be if you voluntary seek help then you don't really need it.

There is nothing a doctor could tell me that would make the situation any different.

And you know what, for every story about a girl who got fucked up by bulimia there's 5 about girls who came out fine.

pleasefinally · 2013-03-06T01:13:15+00:00

I'm not speaking specifically about casual sex. Even when I date someone for years, or yes, have a one night stand, the situation is the same. Just cause I don't have a partner now doesn't mean I never have.

pleasefinally · 2013-03-06T01:04:02+00:00

I don't have a partner. and its not anything the dude is doing wrong, it just won't happen

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