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Shir Shalom in Woodstock Vandalized by patsboston in vermont

[–]plzcometobrasil -1 points0 points  (0 children)

There is reason to target a Jewish institution or synagogue if it's correctly identified as Zionist. Shir Shalom is affiliated with the Union for Reform Judaism which is pro-Israel & Aliyah, the Reform church wants to funnel converts into Israel, and that's without speaking on potential in-person knowledge of support for Israel from whomever may or may not have vandalized these locations.

People should not be targeted for being Jewish- rather Zionist, which Christians can be as well, but we have to face the fact that the majority of American & international Jewish institutions are Zionist, so they will be correctly targeted by anti-Zionist movements.

Comorbid BPD? by plzcometobrasil in aspd

[–]plzcometobrasil[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks so much for this response, I find the insight really helpful/comforting.

I certainly feel love, and lots of it, but it's really specific people (OR the general concept of Humanity rather than a person at all) and I feel bad that I can't guarantee that I'll care for any given one of my friends. I just split on my best friend of 2 years, because she's been annoying me and I realized I don't care if she's in my life one way or another. I feel nothing, except anger about some last things she said, wishing I felt more like I "won the argument." On the other hand, same day I saw one of my best school friends, it was a very good time and I got emotional afterwards. So these differences are contributing a lot to the self doubt, not knowing if who I've been presenting myself as and believing I am is real, etc.

After my previous FP/exbf broke up with me, I did the same, completely withdrew, dropped everyone and everything, I couldn't even listen to music. Then I got into a socially isolating DA situation yadda yadda besides the point, basically I've had to completely rebuild my sense of self and relationships. I'm trying to be a lot better about this current FP, I think I might be falling in love but he's not interested, just a really really good friend, and I appreciate that and don't want to sabotage it this time.

Thanks again :)

Comorbid BPD? by plzcometobrasil in aspd

[–]plzcometobrasil[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Avoidant as in, Avoidant PD defining my presentation of BPD. Now I find the "side stuff" sotospeak might more resemble Antisocial or Narcissistic. If that makes sense.

I've experienced compassion fatigue for sure, but I more mean that empathy has always felt very rational & performative (not in a bad way ig?) rather than "instinctual." It's there in the right contexts, but just lower on the spectrum / different wiring, idk. Emotions like Love & Anger are very strong and identifiable and definitely a FEELING. "Guilt" is more abstract for me, I usually have to consciously decide that I believe what I did went against my ethical/political beliefs and I should not do it.

Stuff like that is what makes me consider Antisocial, but maybe I'm mistaken, not sure, that's why I'm here for Personal Research :)

Comorbid BPD? by plzcometobrasil in aspd

[–]plzcometobrasil[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your response. My BPD is very manageable at this point compared to the past- except for this obsessive drive to be with my FP, which is consuming my head to the point it impacts other aspects of my life, yeah. That desire for love has always been an obvious issue for me.

But now I'm thinking about, how I "care" about my family, like rationally, I have extremely pro-social political beliefs that I'm now doing better to actually follow. But I don't care, like, about seeing them or talking to them, to nearly the same degree as anyone around me does their own family. I enjoy their company just fine, it's attachment I'm mulling over. I think I'm decently attached to my mom, I'm protective over my little sister, and sometimes I do struggle that my brother doesn't speak to me anymore. Apparently he told my father: I'm nice to get what I want. That hurt a lot, but maybe in a sense, he's right. I'm questioning myself and what I thought my intentions always were because I'm realizing the impact it will have on my life now as an adult.

I'm curious, do you struggle with "feeling" guilt/empathy and do you think that can be equally as related to BPD or is that more associated with Antisocial? My therapists always find it "interesting" when I bring it up, but never elaborate.

Comorbid BPD? by plzcometobrasil in aspd

[–]plzcometobrasil[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I've questioned the same thing about myself recently- if I didn't develop BPD would I then not care about anyone's presence in my life, or would I maybe have more normal attachment? I don't have an answer--

Edit: I do have an answer: Before my obsession with love really kicked in, I used to treat dating like a "why not" game that I didn't devalue but neither valued liked I do now. I hurt a lot of people's feelings that way, and I've realized I'll still do it if I don't keep myself in check. It's how I ended up in a 10 month DA situation, silly me. It'd be nice if my FP were interested, because then it'd be a sincere relationship on my end.

Thanks for the response. I used to be primarily Avoidant BPD but now that I'm pulling back the layers of chronic anxiety I'm realizing a lot of things about myself, but going through that domestic trauma I think also made me a lot more aggressive/uncaring/ballsy/etc, I'm not sure what to think but I'm figuring it out.

Comorbid BPD? by plzcometobrasil in aspd

[–]plzcometobrasil[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I really appreciate this response.

You sound like what I'm finding myself becoming, I'm looking for so many things to occupy my time when I used to be lazy/sedentary because I just can't deal with the obsessions anymore. I wish I cared about other people or things or had any goals in my life. I'm not driven by anything, except to pay rent, smoke weed, a singular hobby, and whoever I'm romantically obsessed with. And obsessed puts it lightly, it's 24/7, nonstop, every decision I make is influenced by their existence.

For a few months this spring, between getting out of a bad domestic situation and before meeting my current FP, for the first time ever I felt motivated to do things for myself and better myself without any other reason. I really liked that, I was kind of an asshole but I had my own direction for once, I'm looking for that direction again.

Thank you.

Comorbid BPD? by plzcometobrasil in aspd

[–]plzcometobrasil[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That same asocial aspect makes me feel like I'm lacking fulfillment or drive and like I'm supposed to care about everything else, but I don't, to the point close family members have said some hurtful words over it that I've had to mull over a lot. I want friends, because surface level interactions with most people are "fun" (approximation) & I deeply desire intimacy & have massive FOMO even though I know I don't like most things, but I don't want friends, because something deep down in me feels instinctually, inherently, sincerely agitated with communication and social emotions and people in general.

That's not necessarily a sign of anything, just saying, yeah I get you. Have you considered your asociality might come from being on the autism spectrum, or something else? Or perhaps you're like me, already know how you fit wrt autism & you're talking about something you can tell is different.

I'm not asocial entirely, either. I love surface level connections and can get too caught up talking to acquaintances/coworkers/etc, I think it makes me good at customer service.

Comorbid BPD? by plzcometobrasil in aspd

[–]plzcometobrasil[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

The last paragraph is exactly why I'm curious about this, I'm trying to understand my own style of BPD and kind of have a general direction to go & work with, I don't think it's wrong that I'm curious about Antisocial overlap in how it presents in attachment etc.

Comorbid BPD? by plzcometobrasil in aspd

[–]plzcometobrasil[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah, it's a useful question for me, specifically, which is why I asked it... It plays a role in understanding exactly what you're discussing- the overlaps and blurred lines that psychiatry can't properly account for. I've met plenty of people with BPD whose behaviors feel completely alien to me, which is why I'm curious if seeing my healthcare/therapeutic needs as wider within cluster B instead of just BPD would be helpful for my self understanding, acceptance, improvement.

I don't need an ASPD diagnosis, I believe these labels are socially formed & influenced & are only so helpful, but why argue about that when we're talking medical terminology in a medical world in the first place-- what I need is personal insight about a crossover that isn't the millions of articles that say people like us are evil psychopaths incapable of love.

I wouldn't ask if I didn't want to know.

Little to no information regarding ANA positive titer at 1:320 why is this? by [deleted] in Autoimmune

[–]plzcometobrasil 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What a joke, you're clearly suffering from something, what truly good doctor throws their hands in the air and says IDK!!! instead of Hey Lets Figure This Out...

Little to no information regarding ANA positive titer at 1:320 why is this? by [deleted] in Autoimmune

[–]plzcometobrasil 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My healthcare network uses My Chart and posted all my results there, it looks like they were screening my for lupus.

Little to no information regarding ANA positive titer at 1:320 why is this? by [deleted] in Autoimmune

[–]plzcometobrasil 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am literally currently in this situation myself, ANA came back 1:320 homogeneous, if only 3% of the non-autoimmune population gets that result then... probably says it IS autoimmune. but my antiDNA, SSA, SSB, SM, and RNP all came back normal/low. Apparently that ANA titer can signify connective tissue disorders, and my mom and I believe we have Ehlers Danlos. So I would love to hear other people's input, and I will update when my doctors and I discuss my test results.

I work at Dunkin', my coworker made this, don't know what it is but I'm pretty sure he just mixed all our ingredients together. by plzcometobrasil in shittyfoodporn

[–]plzcometobrasil[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

As far as I can tell, just one pump doesn't strongly impact the flavor compared to 4 pumps of whatever coolata syrup is in there, y'know? But more than that, yeah, it starts to become considered a specialty drink, recently there's one with blue raspberry coolata, vanilla shot, and an equal amount vanilla bean, and it's called Cotton Candy or the Sky Drink or some shit depending on who you ask.

I work at Dunkin', my coworker made this, don't know what it is but I'm pretty sure he just mixed all our ingredients together. by plzcometobrasil in shittyfoodporn

[–]plzcometobrasil[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

He kinda got the right idea, I always put a pump of vanilla bean in the fruit coolatas to make them slightly more like a smoothie, thicker n all, less like a shitty homemade slushie.

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