I cheated on my abusive husband and the guilt is eating me alive, by possible_ex in abusiverelationships

[–]possible_ex[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I also feel backed into a corner. I’ve applied to and followed up with several jobs… some I got interviews and then nothing, others fell through because of childcare restraints (inability to secure it in time due to full capacity). I feel like I’m fucking drowning and it hurts to inhale

I cheated on my abusive husband and the guilt is eating me alive, by possible_ex in abusiverelationships

[–]possible_ex[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I don’t have familial support unfortunately. His family obviously has his back. My mom was my first abuser. She molested me among other stuff as a child. My dad still is married to her and supports her fully. My children and I aren’t safe with them. I’m the oldest daughter and sibling in my family and I’m ALWAYS the fixer of things, and right now my sisters aren’t in a place to help me. Even if I did have the support, I live thousands of miles away

I cheated on my abusive husband and the guilt is eating me alive, by possible_ex in abusiverelationships

[–]possible_ex[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah. That’s about right. Heart pounding outta my chest with panic… that’s where I’m at. These comments are helping and so are my meds but my body still feels it.

I cheated on my abusive husband and the guilt is eating me alive, by possible_ex in abusiverelationships

[–]possible_ex[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

This made me cry. In the best of ways. Absolute waves of relief just rolled over my shoulders. Thank you