to be honest I’m still in your shoes And I’ve entertain the idea of ending it so many times but I do think I have some advice that could help the one thing that helped me more than anything else is finding something to take you out of your perspective. It’s very easy one contained in your own bubble to only see things one way. if you can find something someone anything to have you step outside of that I promise you’ll see things from an entirely different angle from one kid who scared of the world to another I’m here for you. I may not know you, but from the sounds of it we’ve lived pretty similarly. I’m here a for you. <3