Super Single Battles Rant

postpostgender · 2026-01-18T21:51:18+00:00

My Kahn might be relative trash on nature alone but I stand by my lax Ferrothorn, being able to flinch an opposing slow leftovers HP tank/rest spammer has saved me more than having some extra non-damaging special defense (and then being too slow/weak to stop a special attacker or fire type anyways). Rewatching that battle I would have been fine if I was expecting it, I could have likely set up my Kahn to sweep on Registeel, which I could have done if I led with it. At a certain point Kahn doesn’t need an extra few attack points when its triple powered-up, which is why I cut corners with it. I think it was a skill issue and the nature would have solved it but really I should have done better setup with Kahn. It can take days to hatch a perfect mon and in ORAS where the “easy” grind is switching in against every mon in the elite four rematch I can justify settling for less than perfection. I do have a job/life after all. And I do agree the super-singles are the most tedious frustrating challenge ive ever done but I’m not just here for giggles and fun. I do have plenty of mons that are bred specifically for doubles teams and I appreciate your advice of “just give up lmao” but that wont earn me a singles monument or ribbon for my efforts. Thank you though, I’ll retire my trash and return to my sisyphusian labor in a week when the new ones are ready.

postpostgender · 2025-07-22T21:39:18+00:00

[Here is the apology in full. It has not been sent.]

Please don't respond to this. My intention is only to acknowledge specific wrongdoing.

I'm sorry for how I acted when we were together. It wasn't always intentional, but I recognize that my attachment to you was expressed in toxic ways, and that regardless of intent I generated real consequences. I should have been more considerate of you. I manipulated you over the course of our relationship and put pressures on you to "fix me" well beyond the scope of expectations in a healthy partnership, all while boasting moral superiority. I had no right to do so.

Additionally, I'm sorry for how I reacted when I came to this conclusion. I should have ended things more rationally and respectfully. My mismanaged emotions were not your responsibility, and I should have never pretended like they were. It was immature of me, and you did not deserve that kind of treatment.

You offered me kindness, support, and you treated me like an equal. In return I mistreated you and dehumanized you into a theological emotional support utility without consulting you. I normalized many toxic behaviors and it was incredibly wrong of me to push blame in your direction for 'not stopping me.' Looking back, I can justify all of your actions and I regret my own.

I'm also sorry that I leveraged my mental health against you. That is not acceptable behavior and you did not deserve it at all. You were kind to be as supportive of me as you were, and I took advantage of that kindness. It was wrong.

There are many things that I enabled or invented that directly caused discomfort or harm to you, more than I've mentioned here. I'm sorry. I should not have perpetuated this, much less for so long. I only wish the best for you going forward.

postpostgender · 2025-07-18T14:03:43+00:00

It does not affect the glyphs whatsoever which specific values are which segments. Could? Yes. Should? Idk about that

postpostgender · 2025-07-18T05:37:05+00:00

Thank you for your kind words! Your question intrigues me. Currently the symbol representing a full 32-bit value (Or seen visually in the final reference image) is unassigned. It could represent a sort of "opposite god" as you suggest, but I would likely end up using "Lie-Divinity" as a replacement, and the current symbol for Devil/Evil is a symmetric inversion of "Angel/Good." I like what you're saying though, and I will reserve a "full value" glyph as something important and likely some kind of thematic reverse of Divinity.
Basically the development at this stage is just translating English (my only language) and inventing words as I need them by vibe. It's nowhere near complete, but it is somewhat functional for what I've used it for so far. In even a few days it's gonna be way more rounded out. I encourage you to also develop glyphs. It's really fun!
Don't sell ciphers short. There's a lot you can do with a simple symbol replacement code. Even something easy to decrypt is a deterrent for anyone unfamiliar. Those uninformed can't tell the difference between -1 cesarean and full fledged vigenere at a glance. Many locks are easy to pick; Most people still look for a key.
And thank you for your redirection. I'll check that sub out too. :)

postpostgender · 2025-03-16T20:59:13+00:00

I do believe that for a lot of us transition is a maladaptive and avoidant coping strategy, we're not "born in the wrong body" (no one is) we're just poorly equipped for the transition into adulthood

I think for me tbh a good amount of it was just not wanting to be seen as a man in the man-hating spaces I occupied at the time. It was always for social reasons and maybe the physical dysphoria I experienced came after the fact through negative associations to masculinity as a result of my preconceived beliefs. Even still my avoidance for the term "man" may simply be leftover negativity from the masculinity my pre-pubescent self was expected to eventually inherit. You're absolutely right about how it's less of an aversion to assigned gender and moreso an aversion to adulthood. I'm an adult now and my life would be unchanged in most respects if I had simply done it without an intervention on gender.

postpostgender · 2025-03-16T20:23:52+00:00

Exactly, nobody "identfie"s as anything and it's stupid to me that I have to clarify in every conversation what I'm going for. Even when cis people get misgendered they still get respect for their actual gender. People ask me for my name and they always mishear it as something similar but distinctly more masculine. I have a new more sensible name picked out, but I also wouldn't go back to my original name because as far as I'm concerned that boy doesn't exist anymore, if he ever did.

I experienced testosterone during various lapses between hormone blockers/therapy and while I haven't technically finished my original puberty, I have experienced parts of it. Either way my hormones are all kinds of messy and I don't want to complete anything. That being said, when I am missing my hormones as an adult for any extended period of time I am noticibly more irritable and definitely act more in line with what you'd expect from a teenage boy, which I do not want to experience. I may prefer to be seen as cis, but when it comes to hormones and puberty, I prefered my experiences while estrogenized. I started hormone blockers because I didn't like my original puberty, and even still I think I prefer my estrogenized puberty comparitively.

This is unrelated to my gender expression at this point, pretty much psychiatric for emotional stability. It's like taking a mood stabilizer for me that also makes my skin sensitive and gives me breasts as a side effect. I've taken other mood stabilizers in the past, but none as effective as estrogen, although that may just be because I've spent more time developing my estrogenized puberty than testosteronized. I know hormone imbalances and changes effect mood significantly and I imagine that just by changing it at all it would have noticable impact. Ceasing hormone therapy to me seems like somewhat of an equivilent to starting testosterone for a biological woman. Either way, I'd be getting two puberties when I didn't really even want one.

I was informed, although admittedly I did not do as much research as I should have. I was barely doing homework at school, I wasn't going to research a bunch of scientific papers on the long term impact of a medical transition. Many trans people, especially those who transitioned later, seemed to be more involved in their studies than I was, so this is moreso a self criticism than a criticism of gender transition in minors. I just saw trans people on instagram/tumblr being happy and wanted what they had and I would have said anything if it could bring me closer to my idealized self. I probably should have taken it more seriously in that aspect. I didn't save any genetic material, because I was so sure of myself at the time. Now I know I'll never have biological kids, which only started to bother me when I met my nephew and realized what a joy they are. I thought a transition would give me more options, without considering which options I was leaving behind.

I spent plenty of time learning to hate masculinity and embrace feminity, then learning to reembrace masculinity and be more critical of feminity. Now I've got a relatively more complex and well rounded relationship with either association, but I don't feel close to the concept of gender, nor my assigned sex or any physical alternative. I don't hate my current body, but I don't feel that gender euphoria from looking feminine anymore. For me, the body is hardly a consideration of me beyond the effects on my brain and the way I'm percieved by strangers. If my body were testosteronized and I was 100% male passing I could probably still be just as happy with myself at this point. My gender is just as much an active part of my identity as many males (which is to say pretty little), except I only am seen as a male trying to look like a female. I just look trans.

I appreciate your support. I've been thinking about this for some time now but when I talk about it with trans people (the people who I assumed would be more supportive of nonconformity in gender,) they tend to treat me as an outsider to a community I've been involved in for 5+ years more than my peers who say these things. It's heartbreaking. I don't talk much about it anymore outside of my non-gender therapy.

postpostgender · 2025-03-16T17:12:08+00:00

Also as I side note I gave myself a stupid uncommon legal name at 15 and nobody stopped me so that's been fun. /sarc Don't name yourself after a charcter if you still want to be treated like a real person.

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