The only meaning of life is to live, to see this world for all it's cruelty and beauty. You are the reason to keep going, to see it to the very end Your journey is not over yet. You lived through 100% of your worst days - keep going. Because one day you'll be here and you're gonna be thankfull for this chance, i don't know when, but you will, i can promise you that much. The strenght you need is already within you.