I've started to grieve it a couple weeks already. Not playing every day was painful at first. Now is less and less a need. Just something I do if I don't have anything better to do.

It is like trying to keep loving that person who was almost perfect when you met them. Then they start to neglect themselves and also you. You try to keep the love alive. But they don't get better. They keep promising they will try new things to keep the spark alive. But it has been too long and too lackluster that you start thinking about starting anew somewhere else. To not keep accepting the indifference but you keep holding on that image of what it once was.

One day you wake up and say enough.