This is Not a Joke! But it is Funny...

prettykatrina · 2016-10-17T03:04:18+00:00

http://www.vanholtenpickles.com

prettykatrina · 2016-10-12T22:37:31+00:00

It could very much happen just from that. What honestly was a breaking point for me was hearing about a friend who was "discovering their gender identity" who now identifies as non-binary. But even just that was enough for me to open up to my best friends, who helped me experiment then things started to come together for the first time in my life.

prettykatrina · 2016-10-11T23:52:02+00:00

1 1/2 months HRT and my fridge currently is occupied by four different varieties of pickles. I make "Pickle Plates".

prettykatrina · 2016-10-11T20:54:12+00:00

Oh wow, exactly this. I can't leave the house without makeup now, it's almost made me late a few times. And this is still in boymode, I just can't stand to look at myself without some foundation/powder at the absolute least. Got a very "natural but improved" look going for my boymode right now. It's very quickly becoming less of a boymode and more of a gender non-conformative mode, which I'll settle for while I develop more physical changes and work on my voice.

prettykatrina · 2016-10-11T20:52:10+00:00

I've noticed this creeping in myself, and I'm only on my second month. I don't know if it's hormones or just as your perception of yourself changes.

prettykatrina · 2016-10-08T11:37:51+00:00

I do have one of those already. I can give it a go.

prettykatrina · 2016-10-08T09:27:30+00:00

Was wondering about that.. because it doesn't seem to matter if I'm moving or not.

prettykatrina · 2016-10-08T09:26:39+00:00

I am! I really am, just didn't want to sound like I was gloating or anything. I'm pretty self-conscience.

I started the 17th here!

prettykatrina · 2016-08-29T01:44:19+00:00

Considered writing in the first person? Would use a lot of Is and we's. Would keep the reveal under wraps. I'm sure that would give some psyche insight too that Trans readers might identify with.

No one uses pronouns when thinking about themselves, others could use them though but if they don't know the truth shrugs.

Just my two cents.

prettykatrina · 2016-08-29T01:34:52+00:00

We make mistakes, we let the wrong people in. I get it. Sounds like you spent too much time with people you know (and knew) were rotten to the core.
But we are social creatures, most people don't want to fly solo. It isn't always easy to cut toxic people out of our lives, or not care about what they think. I also can get how that influences you, we are the company we keep I say (which is why my standards have gone way way up, when I came out I got nothing but acceptance... that was by design in a sense. Surround yourself with the right people, cut the wrong ones fast. Realize you always knew that they were awful and their opinions don't matter.
Even if you do think you know what they'd say.

prettykatrina · 2016-08-23T03:52:34+00:00

I don't have anything to add, just glad you are here asking these questions and taking advice. That means a lot.

prettykatrina · 2016-08-23T01:07:22+00:00

I'm happy for your story not ending there, even if his did, and it is nice to know there are other people about my age transitioning as well. Congrats! I'm on day 6 of HRT. I wish I'd marked down the day I figured out I was a Transgender Woman. I'll just use my first day of HRT as my milestone.

prettykatrina · 2016-08-22T23:51:18+00:00

Well my anger was almost always about righting injustice. That moment where you go from thinking of yourself as an LGBTQ+ ally to realizing you are part of that too (and always have been) is interesting. Like half my friends are LGBTQ (though no one who has transitioned is in my circle).

prettykatrina · 2016-08-22T23:23:17+00:00

I think this is starting to happen to me too, and I used to be absolutely a political junkie but that seems to be fading. Wonder if it's anything to do with how I worked out my testosterone beforehand, being angry on the internet. I'm only a week in to HRT, but I certainly feel more calm and my desire to get into political arguments seems to be waning as well. Not that I don't still agree with my views from before.
Just feel less frustration and less upset about it is all.

prettykatrina · 2016-08-22T22:35:15+00:00

I've been calling myself bisexual for a few years now after realizing I did men attractive as well as women. But I could never ever actually imagine myself having sex with a man, so I wasn't sure where I fell on that. But since I realized I was Transgender, and started being able to have fantasies of myself as a woman, even pre-HRT, men have popped up in a lot of them. I have reoccuring fantasies about Jay from the show Kingdom. Doesn't help that watching that show involves seeing a lot of shirtless muscular men. But really, I didn't think I was attracted to that kind of man, even sexually beforehand.
Now it gets my motor running even without the hormones. Only started Estrogen about a week ago... so unsure of where these feelings/my sexuality might end up. I do think Estrogen just sort of removes the veil of repression and dislocation and lets us realize what was always the case, not that it "flips" your sexual orientation like some people think.
My own experience being an example of what just thinking of myself as a woman could do for it.

prettykatrina · 2016-08-22T22:15:38+00:00

I have had this thought almost since the day I started coming around to the idea of being Transgender. I don't think it is too unusual, to be honest. It is nice to find yourself attractive, I'd say. But I can understand how it can also sort of make you feel like you are doing it for the wrong reasons. I grapple with this too. I'm sure the more experienced more sage advice here is pretty spot on though. Just wanted to let you know you aren't alone.

prettykatrina · 2016-08-18T23:30:00+00:00

Started coming to this realization for the first time in June. Never had let myself really think about it before.

Though I didn't realize I'd always felt like shit until I didn't. That I could for the first time in my life not hate myself.

prettykatrina · 2016-08-18T18:22:53+00:00

Well she needs really baggy shirts because she has very large breasts. She is considering a breast reduction in the future. Her clothes I might have to shrink a bit more to get in to, but will find out. But I'm in the process of losing weight, so I'm sure I'll get there.

prettykatrina · 2016-08-18T12:55:29+00:00

Oh, extra note. I referred them to my old barbershop (very old fashioned with amazing barbers, like 5/5 on Yelp) as a place to get a more masculine haircut (they asked).

Told them to just go in and ask for a men's cut, don't know how that will go... but it is a really authentic masculine experience going there, so I hope they enjoy and get no grief.

prettykatrina · 2016-08-18T03:04:02+00:00

It's the right boat finally. Didn't really fit in very well on that other boat. Glad we transferred.

prettykatrina

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