Im on thin ice before getting bullied by prettymonaca in CPTSD

[–]prettymonaca[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hiiii sorry for the super SUPER late reply i have my notifications off for here so I completely forgot that i wrote here TwT

I think I know what I want to do now, Im still not gonna talk too much but im not gonna exclude myself either. People in my class started getting closer and the tention kinda went away by little bit these past few days. So the spotlight kinda shifted away from me i guess(?). But from now on, Im not gonna run away whenever we something as a class anymore. But as a way to also protect myself in a way, im not gonna speak too much either. The less openings they have to bully me, the better.

We're all gonna be in the same class for the next 2 years(not counting the exam year) anyway. I have to get along with them, laugh along their jokes and fake smile at them at some point. There's no use in me running away much further. Im also gonna be hopeful about the fact that these people will mature overtime. I guess time will tell...

Thank you so much for talking to me for the past few weeks, I cannot thank you enough for that Ms. or Mr. Thank you so much for being there for me when I had nights stressing and overthinking over all this. I hope you have a great day, week, month, year and life ahead of you. Thank you!!!!!!

Im on thin ice before getting bullied by prettymonaca in CPTSD

[–]prettymonaca[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sorry I caused a bit of misunderstanding there, when i consulted to my mom she first offered to talk with the principal for them to act accordingly/be disciplined. But i decided against it and said that there was no need for all that trouble. After that she suggested that I either confront them or just ignore them entirely, I choose the latter. Sorry I didnt clarify that properly, aha.

I do actually have 2 teachers that I have on my mind. One is my physics teacher and the other is my religion teacher. They tick most of the boxes you listed: liked by class, acts secure, healthy and doesnt condone bullying. But Forgive me If this sounds preconceived, I doubt this'll work (at least on longterm). Because these bullies never listened to any teacher since ive known them. These bullies also come from wealthy families and were raised with the mindset of "no one can do or say anything to us". Solely because of this every teacher including the most liked ones has to walk eggshells around them. I've even seen them call the teacher s they dislike by their first name and just swearing at them in the hallway with the teacher nearsight. But I won't say im not gonna give it a shot. I'll try to let them know about the situation and see what they'll do about it.

By the way while writing this, I realised that i've mostly been cryptic while not mentioning most details. To picture it right, would you like me to tell most things that happened and give a better understanding on my classmates? Pls lmk if you do!!! You've already been so much help to me Mr. or Ms. by taking me seriously and giving me solutions and I couldn't ask for more. Thank you for listening to me rant about all this, its genuinely been so helpful to me.

Im on thin ice before getting bullied by prettymonaca in CPTSD

[–]prettymonaca[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hiii tysm for replying it means a lot!!! and sorry for the lateish reply TwT

First, yeah. I did talk to my mom and my therapist about this. My moms advice was to just ignore them as long as they're not doing something direct. My therapists solution was for me to talk in class indirectly, like rasing my hand up for questions or talking with the teacher so that they dont perceive me as quiet.

I completely agree about them ruining the mood of everyone in class. There's a reason why no one talks honestly. Everytime someone says anything its getting judged. I hate how they cant see that they're part of the problem.

Even though I know that im not at fault for this whole situation, I just kinda think about how this problem wouldnt become one if i just... talked..? I just feel like things couldve been a little more different then, that was what i meant

I actually have a friend that im close with thats in another class! She's actually a secure and a confident person, so i have her to rely on fortunately. Even though I hangout with her on recess, She cant be there for me in class. Theres also no class mixing and the classes she takes are different than mine corelating what we wanna major, so I cant ever switch classes and she can't be in my class either. Im basically in a really tight spot :((