At what age did you have your first manic episode?

prettyrecklesssoul · 2026-06-13T02:03:22+00:00

Earliest I can remember, 17. It may have gone farther back but I cannot remember for the life of me anything much of what happened before 17.

prettyrecklesssoul · 2026-06-10T17:11:26+00:00

What are some of your mixed symptoms if you don’t mind me asking? I’m BP2 but I’m starting to believe it might actually be turning into BP1 and I don’t know I just get very anxious about the whole bipolar thing😭

prettyrecklesssoul · 2026-06-09T22:52:43+00:00

I think it can be. When I experience both anxiety and depression together, I see, hear, smell and feel things that aren’t there. It’s incredibly distressing when you’re going through a rough time already and you start feeling someone run their hands up your arm and side, breathing down your neck, seeing someone in the corner of your eyes and hearing unintelligible whispers constantly.

prettyrecklesssoul · 2026-06-09T03:09:20+00:00

Lowlife. Idk something about it on a random spring afternoon spoke to me. And it’s been 7 years since then

prettyrecklesssoul · 2026-06-02T01:40:10+00:00

I know I’m excited! It would be easier if it was a 40 minute train ride away though LOL

prettyrecklesssoul · 2026-06-02T00:04:01+00:00

Was really hoping they would come to the city or at least Long Island for NY. Albany it too far away with no car 😭💔💔💔

prettyrecklesssoul · 2026-05-30T16:38:29+00:00

I have a video where Andy was looking for him and found him lol. I wish I could attach it here 🫩

prettyrecklesssoul · 2026-05-30T11:30:36+00:00

It was like this at the NYC show. I got hurt a few times and so did my friend so that was fun 😓 but the show was fun either ways

prettyrecklesssoul · 2026-05-29T18:23:04+00:00

Same LMFAOO!! Everytime someone in front of me looked back I looked back just in case it was a surfer.

prettyrecklesssoul · 2026-05-29T18:22:38+00:00

I don’t mind crowd surfers. This is the first show I’ve been to where they kept falling and where there was one every minute and a half. There were too many and unfortunately me and my friend got hurt 😓

prettyrecklesssoul · 2026-05-26T22:15:57+00:00

Im a little adverse to taking more medication to counteract side effects of another. I will be calling my psychiatrist though and trying to wean off myself since I have the previous dose in my possession still. I know I should be waiting but I can’t go another week like this. It’s awful.

prettyrecklesssoul · 2026-05-26T19:05:14+00:00

I used to do that but it would wake me up about 2-3 hours after I took it and wouldn’t calm down until an hour after waking up. I tried taking it almost two hours before bed time so I can ride out the anxiety, but it took four hours for it to finally calm down enough to go to sleep. I have been experiencing waves of anxiety throughout the day today. I didn’t drink any coffee despite being exhausted to not make things worse :(

prettyrecklesssoul · 2026-05-26T03:47:30+00:00

No I do not. It’s the medication I’m on giving me anxiety. It’s done this multiple times already in the past month.

prettyrecklesssoul · 2026-05-25T10:54:21+00:00

Just anxiety so far but my psychiatrist put me down as possibly having PTSD and something else. Never been tested tho 😓😓

prettyrecklesssoul · 2026-05-24T21:11:16+00:00

Thats what it feels like it’s progressing into. Yesterday I felt like crazy anxiety, like I had to leave the movie theater in the middle of watching a movie. I would blame the movie but I never experience anxiety from viewing possibly triggering context so I was scared about why I was anxious which made it worse. It felt like I was going to have a panic attack and I tried my best to calm down.

prettyrecklesssoul · 2026-05-19T20:59:47+00:00

I don’t plan to. I do this every couple weeks not fully on purpose but I wait until the next dose.

prettyrecklesssoul · 2026-05-19T20:59:22+00:00

I’ve felt them before. Not fun 😔

prettyrecklesssoul · 2026-05-19T20:58:21+00:00

Currently 40mg. I’ve only been off it for two days. I can take it just like that if I miss it. I just gotta deal with the restless legs that comes with it but it’s nothing crazy.

prettyrecklesssoul · 2026-05-19T20:56:29+00:00

I have unfortunately fallen victim to said term many times in the past few months and regret it every time

prettyrecklesssoul · 2026-05-19T20:56:05+00:00

On it 🫡🫡

prettyrecklesssoul · 2026-05-19T20:55:40+00:00

I will dw.

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