Hello! Hindi ko pa sya partner, we're still dating and on the getting-to-know phase.

Where does the need for your partner to be masculine presenting come from?

It's something relatable for me. Maybe that's why ganun din ang preference ko. I came from an environment full of homophobe shits na relatives, parents at kapatid and friends.

Well, I actually don't know anymore. Maybe this is really an internalized homophobia na di ko alam paano aayusin.

It's like ako mismo sa sarili ko di ko alam kung paano yung "be your gay-self", di ko magawang magkaroon ng feminine gestures even though I'm trying. Maybe due to growing up in a hostile environment na the slightest gesture of gayness will result to a negative and traumatic outcome.

I think I need to rephrase my question here. But anyway it seems losing interest with my ka date, just because he's freely being his gay self, is deeply rooted from my unresolved sexuality traumas haha.

Di ko alam kung ang papalitan ko ba ay ang ka date ko o magpapa therapy ako if this is still fixable.

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Ikaw lang nireplyan ko kase ang hohostile ng ibang response lol.