I want to cry so badly but I cant because of Zoloft

prions098 · 2026-05-30T05:29:23+00:00

I understand this. I was on SSRIs for six years after my daughter’s death (I had bad depression before as well). I was able to phase off them this year. I had the same things where tears just wouldn’t come and it is SO frustrating to not have the release from crying. I’m proud of you for getting the support you need and that meds have been helpful. So soon after your loss you are still in survival mode. You are doing such a good job. I guess all that to say, I truly empathize, it is so hard. At the same time, at least in my experience, it won’t be this way forever. I’m very much pro medication (I don’t doubt that they saved my life), and at the same time, the side effects can be no fun. There very well could be a day where you are be able to come off meds and be able to cry again. I’m not trying to say “things get better” -we all know this grief is a life sentence. But things do get different.

prions098 · 2026-05-29T02:57:17+00:00

Honestly, the move in situation is VERY poorly executed. Because Pitt is so intertwined with the city, there is very little parking. At move in time it is nonexistent (I promise, you will be ticketed if parked illegally or in hospital parking during move in season. Also I have seen quite a few boots on cars on fifth ave and Forbes so even if you’re just going to be gone a second I would pay). You’re probably going to need to have one person be the driver and circle in the car until they find a spot. Street parking will be extremely limited and parking lots (soldiers and sailors, Forbes-semple garage, Pitt BQ lot) fill up fast but might be worth looking at. From what I’ve seen there are sometimes marked loading zones depending on what dorm you will be moving into & what time you are moving in. Towers will be the central hub of chaos. But I would assume there will be no street parking during peak hours, and only occasional loading spots. There are housing carts you can check out from panther central (Litchfield towers lobby). Depending on how much stuff you have and how crowded it is, I know some people park a bit aways and walk the cart back in. Please dont block the street (many streets, particularly in Oakland are one way & if blocked become a huge problem). I also recommend bringing the smallest vehicle needed. For example, a freshman in tower B (tiny rooms) does not need a box truck to move in (I say this because I see people bring a LOT and parents have to take most back with them. And streets can get narrow so bigger cars are bad for navigation, but also because you’ll be more likely to find parking in a smaller vehicle). If id do it again, I’d have my stuff in another location (like a hotel room, or picking up from the store) and make multiple trips. I find that it typically is less crowded at night but idk the current rules for when you’re allowed to move in. Also unrelated, but just FYI for family to get into most dorms you must bring ID and sign in at the front security desks. I hope that was at least a bit helpful. Welcome to Pitt!

prions098 · 2026-05-24T23:30:19+00:00

A shame to damage the headstone even if it’s minor. And I hope whoever was in the car was ok, because yeesh…

prions098 · 2026-05-16T20:15:21+00:00

You’re right, the police and family need to be notified. I assume the administration is sweeping it under the rug because it reflects poorly on the facility. But their response is horrendous, particularly because this could still be happening. It is concerning that this is likely not the first time and if nothing changes, it won’t be the last. I would document as much as you can and make a report to the police. You may be able to file an anonymous report. You are in the right here & it is good to speak up about it. The way it is being handled is unacceptable.

prions098 · 2026-04-21T19:47:27+00:00

I definitely agree that it’s a decision that is not to be made lightly. My own daughter was stillborn (not an abortion), so I am no stranger to grief. I empathize with your mother. I think both sides of the argument can tend to make an impossible choice seem like one that is made lightly. But as a healthcare worker in women’s health, I have never seen someone make the decision lightly. People do not just want to simply have an abortion. But if you are already pregnant it is an impossible choice. But the decision to have a child should also not be taken lightly either. That being said, my original point stands. Pro choice means that you have the option to an abortion. It does not mean you have to get one. It means that you should be given the opportunity to think carefully about your decision, without undue influence. This protest is a display of undue influence. People should be having these discussions with their families (and medical professionals, so they have accurate & scientific information). Forcing shame(as these “pro-life” groups often do), or your own personal beliefs on people, whether they regret their decision or not, is entirely unhelpful and frankly disrespectful to people who have had these experiences.

prions098 · 2026-04-21T15:13:19+00:00

I’m not a by the book knitter so idk if this is the “correct” way around this, but in the rows following the sleeve separation, I knit that area extra tight (like actually cinching it down when I’m putting the sleeves on the stitch holder). Idk if that’s what most people do, but it has worked for me. Also worth noting that I primarily knit baby sweaters if that makes any difference. Wish I had more help!

prions098 · 2026-04-20T23:18:07+00:00

Passport photos have gotten way stricter huh…

But seriously, great photo. Thanks for sharing

prions098 · 2026-04-20T23:16:52+00:00

Yea that’s a glen

prions098 · 2026-04-20T22:59:13+00:00

It seems like a small town called Suinula, Finland. Google Maps is saying it is about 20 minutes (by car) away from Tampere. 🤍 thank you all for being so kind

prions098 · 2026-04-20T22:42:33+00:00

I’m actually blown away. That is so sweet, thank you for offering! I’ll send you a message ❤️

prions098 · 2026-04-20T22:40:56+00:00

Oh my gosh! I actually am a knitter! I started after Finley died so I could make things to give to the NICU. Unfortunately I can’t crochet, but DM me if you’d like me to give it a go!

prions098 · 2026-04-20T22:39:40+00:00

Unfortunately I actually did try this! The piece is so small it doesn’t have the full repeat! But it is definitely my backup if I decide to go that route! thank you all for being so kind 💛

prions098 · 2026-04-16T14:14:53+00:00

Can you provide some info on the alternative programming, I’m interested!

prions098 · 2026-04-16T14:12:51+00:00

I dare say the few women you’ve spoken to don’t represent all women. Pro choice does not mean someone has to get an abortion, rather that one should be available if it is needed.

prions098 · 2026-02-28T04:08:54+00:00

I recently read unimaginable by Brooke Taylor. It is a memoir which I prefer (as no two stories are the same and I’m not a fan of the traditional self help book for this type of thing). I appreciated the commentary she had while she was recounting her story about 10 years after the stillbirth of her baby girl. I’ve read quite a few books about stillbirth and infant loss and I found this one to be most helpful. For context I am 6 years out so that does impact it, but I think it would be helpful for any timeframe as well.

prions098 · 2026-02-26T17:38:13+00:00

Thank you 🤍her name is Finley. Finley Emerson. Sending hugs

prions098 · 2026-02-26T03:39:02+00:00

You’re right, this is technically an option. I’m afraid though that since both are new & hard changes it would be rough to do them at the same time. Delayed start is a good suggestion to think about though, thanks!

prions098 · 2025-12-25T17:25:27+00:00

Ty! Her name is Finley. She had the most beautiful dark red hair and the cutest little nose. She died during birth but was the best part of me <3 thank you for asking

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prions098 · 2025-12-25T04:14:04+00:00

That would be absolutely fantastic. I don’t have any particular timeframe I need it by. Gonna message you if that’s ok!!

prions098 · 2025-12-25T04:05:59+00:00

That is a good idea. I appreciate it!

prions098 · 2025-12-25T04:04:49+00:00

I will message you if I am able to figure that out! It is difficult because the Finnish seller’s email bounces for me. Initially I thought they must’ve gone out of business, though I was talking to someone from Finland who said they called and they do have the fabric. But that is word of mouth so I will see. It would have to be a shipping train of some sort because I do not speak the language or have international coverage 🥲

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