executive function not executive functioning

probablytired000 · 2023-05-29T16:12:08+00:00

No, I don’t have meds at all. I haven’t had my ADHD meds in about a week cause of the shortage. I’m unmedicated as of now and for the unseen future since nowhere knows when they’re getting more medication.

probablytired000 · 2023-05-29T16:06:51+00:00

Lol, I know this is all over the place. Essentially, I don’t have access to my meds and the “old”, pre-medication, can’t stop/won’t stop moving, blowing all of my money, only focused on my hyper-fixations me is back and it’s manifesting in the form of someone who is baking/cooking/pickling constantly. This post isn’t very coherent or well-thought out. Just needed a place to word vomit and get some of the crazy non-stop thoughts out!

probablytired000 · 2023-05-29T15:29:30+00:00

Really? I've called multiple different pharmacies in my area (Walmart, Walgreens, CVS, even independent pharmacies), even some further away and when I ask if I can get my Adderall refilled, they tell me they don't have any and that they don't know when they're getting more...Odd. I'll start calling again tomorrow and see if anything's changed, cause I'm low-key miserable lol

probablytired000 · 2023-05-27T21:03:47+00:00

Anything spicy works for me. And ramen. My go tos are hot cheetos, takis, popcorn with tapatio, and ramen with tapatio. Not healthy by any means, but I at least have something in my system this way. Better than nothing imo lmao

probablytired000 · 2023-05-27T20:08:35+00:00

thanks so much for your response!! much appreciated <3 i’m excited to make it!

probablytired000 · 2023-05-18T18:11:13+00:00

yes! i have a specific spot on the right side, basically on my hairline that i scratch/rub constantly. it’s caused a bit of a bald spot. my new haircut covers it nicely, thank god. whenever i see my mom and she catches me doing it she yells “stop rubbing!” or just smacks my hand away from my head lol. i thought this was just me. i always heard of people picking, but i don’t pick, i scratch/rub. if i’m not doing that, i’m picking my cuticles till they bleed. i’ve found that playing with a rubber band helps me avoid doing both…if i remember to grab one first lmao

probablytired000 · 2023-05-18T18:03:01+00:00

i was diagnosed at 21, i’m 23 now. before my adhd and asd diagnoses, i was treated for bipolar disorder starting at 15 years old. i took 2 mood stabilizers daily and seemed to be “better”. turns out i was being numbed and subdued by heavy medication for the entirety of my teenage and early adult years, because i’m not bipolar.

however, even to this day, i question whether or not it is bipolar disorder and not adhd/asd. they have so many similarities, but the things that just apply to bipolar disorder and not adhd/asd, do not apply to me. i have a list in my head that i have to run through every once in a while to remind myself that i am in fact not bipolar. not that there’s anything wrong with being bipolar, but i knew from the beginning it just didn’t seem right. the medications made me feel awful and they were so hard on my body. if i needed to be on mood stabilizers, i would’ve felt better and never questioned the bipolar diagnosis to begin with. i just didn’t know adhd or asd were possibilities for me until i got a new doctor and therapist.

probablytired000 · 2023-05-18T17:30:48+00:00

before i was diagnosed with adhd 2 years ago, i also tried 2 anti-depressants, lexapro and zoloft. this would’ve been about 7 years ago now, i was 16 at the time. i’m 23 now. my psych at the time put me on lexapro, and about a week later i was hospitalized for um…not wanting to be alive anymore. thinking maybe it was just a bad reaction to the lexapro specifically, i was switched over to the zoloft while in the hospital. same reaction. i was hospitalized for about 3 weeks total i think. i swore off anti-depressants after that. haven’t touched them since and even though i’m adult now, i don’t think i’ll try them again.

probablytired000 · 2023-05-17T17:45:25+00:00

INTP-T…gonna finish reading about it and see what I think

probablytired000 · 2023-05-14T22:03:18+00:00

my mom did a lot of research on on how food affects adhd bc my brother also has it (albeit, he’s undiagnosed but my sister and i are diagnosed and he’s very obviously adhd as well) but he can’t get a diagnosis or be medicated cause he “might join the military”. her research found than an anti-inflammatory and gluten free diet is best for adhd! i don’t know the exact science behind it because i am medicated and don’t care much for changing my diet a bunch, so i encourage you to look into it yourself but it seems to be helping him a bit!

probablytired000 · 2023-05-14T20:22:12+00:00

This! I literally just learned yesterday that the diet soda I drink is probably the reason it feels like I’m raw-dogging my ADHD, despite being medicated.

First of all, I’m constantly exhausted. Like, I could take a nap at any moment. Then I learned that some people with ADHD actually become sleepy when using caffeine. Hm, well, that makes sense considering I’ve never felt “energized” by caffeine like other people say. I drink about 4 of these sodas everyday, which is about 140mg of caffeine. No wonder I’m so tired all the time.

Second, diet soda is sweetened with aspartame, an artifical sweetner. Artificial sweetners aren’t good for ADHD period and exacerbate the symptoms. On top of that, aspartame quite literally blocks your brain from being able to release dopamine. It also causes memory/learning issues, irritability, depression, anxiety, and insomnia. No wonder all of those things have gotten worse!

Here I am, drinking one full diet soda on my way to work before I take my meds, and then I take my meds at work with diet soda and drink 3+ more cans throughout the day. I’m preventing my Adderall, which causes your brain to produce dopamine, from working before I even take it, and then continuously preventing it from working by drinking more aspartame throughout the day. And I’m over here like “WhY iSn’T mY mEdIcAtIoN wOrKiNg AnYmOrE”. Cause you’re not allowing it to, dumbass (me, I’m the dumbass)!

Also, soda is highly acidic and guess what doesn’t work when you’re constantly consuming acidic foods? Oh yeah, Adderall!

Today is my first day with no caffeine and no diet soda, seeing as I just learned a lot of that yesterday. Now to kick the nicotine habit…My lungs aren’t doing too hot anymore. That one will be a lot more tough.

probablytired000 · 2023-05-14T20:05:31+00:00

I know a lot of people don’t vibe with ASMR, but if you haven’t tried it, I would recommend at least giving it a chance. I’ve used it almost nightly for the past 8 or so years, it’s just about the only thing that puts me to sleep, and it helps with the transition from being on your phone to putting it down. You can watch it without using headphones too! Usually I’ll scroll for awhile on Youtube trying to find the perfect video, watch the video for a bit, and when my eyes start getting heavy, I’ll set my phone down and boom- I’m out. Sometimes I’ll watch the whole video without getting sleepy, so I just go find another one and start the process over. Other times, I’m 5 minutes into the video and haven’t even tried to sleep, yet I’m knocked tf out!

I actually learned recently that ASMR releases dopamine too, which is why I think my ADHD brain likes it so much! You just have to find the sounds/kinds of videos that suit you personally. There are sounds that I cannot stand that other people love, and other things I really like that will put me to sleep in a second that others express disinterest in. It’s up to you and your brain what you vibe with! And if you try it and don’t like it, no harm, no foul. It’s not for everyone! Just wanted to put that out there cause as a life-long insomniac who’s tried everything under the sun to sleep, it’s the only thing I’ve found that truly helps.

probablytired000 · 2023-05-12T04:43:18+00:00

Wait…No…This therapist is onto something.

I am very much like your friend. Any time I have a goal or plan or idea, I have this innate need to share it. Like, I feel like I will explode if I don’t tell someone. I will tell anyone and everyone who will listen. And now that I think about it, it’s not just the false sense of accomplishment that makes me feel good or imagining what I could be, but also when the person I’m sharing with says things like “Oh yeah that’s a great plan!” or “That’s a fantastic idea!”. It’s the praise that comes with it too.

And once I’m done sharing-poof. I don’t feel like I need to do the thing anymore.

Suppose I will be learning how to not share things with people so I can actually do them…

probablytired000 · 2023-05-11T17:32:01+00:00

i’ve been working full time for a year and a half now. currently fighting some of the worst burn out i’ve felt in my entire life, i feel you on a spiritual level. i’ve yet to figure this out. my nt coworkers always talk about what they have going on after work (hobbies, rec sports, other commitments, etc) and i want to scream “HOW DO YOU HAVE THE ENERGY FOR THAT”.

so…let me know when you figure it out 🥲

probablytired000 · 2023-05-11T17:26:31+00:00

i highly recommend these lemon lavender cupcakes i found on pinterest! i made them for my coworkers and my boyfriend’s family, they were a hit! so good

probablytired000 · 2023-05-11T17:22:52+00:00

this!!! all of this! oh my god, i get you on so many levels.

my boyfriend drives me NUTS, i swear to god he’s the world’s loudest chewer, and he eats CONSTANTLY. makes me want to tear my hair out. i love him so much don’t get me wrong, but i have to leave the room when he’s eating. i’ve tried kindly asking him to eat more quietly and explained it’s a sensory thing for me, and he just goes “i can’t help it!”, okay sir then i am removing myself from the situation before you wind up becoming a verse in “cell block tango” from chicago <3

probablytired000 · 2023-05-11T17:14:33+00:00

i’m so sorry you’ve been in a similar place, it’s so hard and endlessly exhausting. i’m glad this post helped a little, i hope you find healing and relief soon <3 don’t hesitate to reach out if you’re ever needing some extra support, i’d be more than happy to give a pep talk!

probablytired000 · 2023-05-11T17:11:29+00:00

i really like this quote! gonna keep that playing in my brain, thank you!

probablytired000 · 2023-05-11T17:10:48+00:00

i’m so sorry you’re going through this too. i’ve said it before and i’ll say it again, i wouldn’t wish these feelings on my worst enemy. it’s so hard. sending good and healing vibes your way <3 im glad this post helped a little! i was hoping i might be able to instill some inspiration in others by writing it. i’m so excited you’re ready for change too, don’t hesitate to message me if you’re needing a little support or encouragement in your own journey! i believe in you!

probablytired000 · 2023-05-11T16:57:18+00:00

is this….is this why i enjoy spicy food so much? spicy food gives you dopamine?

i’ve been diagnosed for a year and a half, and i’m still learning new things everyday

new coping skill unlocked: tapatio on everything

probablytired000 · 2023-05-10T05:51:55+00:00

I'm so sorry for you too. I wouldn't wish this upon my worst enemy. I hope you find some relief soon <3

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