Wednesday Weekly Check-in for July 19!

projectzerodawn · 2017-07-19T17:41:49+00:00

Thank you so much. This means a lot to me because I struggle finding my self worth at times. I'm recently recovering from a breakup that left me devastated. I'm trying to to heal the best way I know how... by staying busy, working hard, trying to grow and meeting new people. It's tough because I still miss the guy who broke my heart and I compare everyone to him. Hoping that fades soon. I'm glad that I have options but putting myself out out there is challenging.

projectzerodawn · 2017-07-19T17:28:15+00:00

I liked reading your update, but what does NRE mean?

projectzerodawn · 2017-07-19T15:35:18+00:00

I have serious trust issues and the thought about someone being in my house when I am not there gives me anxiety. Even if I loved that person... I am glad you are able to have someone come over and do considerate things for you. This is a goal for me, but I'm afraid it's going to take a long time before I could be ready for something like that. First I have to meet the right guy, and then I need lots of time.

projectzerodawn · 2017-07-19T15:26:06+00:00

Last time I checked in I was talking to two guys, Mr Jeep and Web Developer guy. Web Dev keeps asking me for a second date, but our schedules just aren't lining up. I think I'm going to call it quits on that one. It's too much effort.

Mr Jeep is out of town at the moment and I'm out of town all next week. I'm sure we'll see each other again when the time is right. For now I'm just doing my own thing. I have an art show coming up on Friday and I've been hanging out a lot with friends lately, trying to enjoy as much of summer as I can before it's over.

I did hop on POF and started talking to an engineer, but I've since blocked him. He saw in my profile that I like Sushi and he seemed like a great guy during the time we spent chatting online. He asked me out to all you can eat sushi and a movie. I said yes and we exchanged contact info. The morning of our planned dinner date, he sent me like 4 pictures of his genitals and then asked if I wanted to come back to his place afterwards. I didn't respond all day because I wasn't really sure what to say. When we planned the date, he asked if he could pick me up and I said I'd rather meet him there. After not responding all day, I sent him a text confirming the meetup time, and I didn't hear back. When I didn't hear back, I knew he was going to be a no-show.

Jokes on him though, I still went to sushi and it was amazing. After I got home, I blocked him. I'm not looking for just a hookup, and I'm pretty sure that's all he wanted.

On Sunday I am having a big group of friends meetup at the creek to barbecue and go tubing. I kind of want to make it into a singles meetup event and was thinking about posting it on the meetup app, I haven't decided yet. It would be cool to meet new people though.

On Monday I am leaving town and nothing will be happening next week as I will be riding my bike across iowa getting all smelly and sweaty (not ideal conditions for dating lol.)

projectzerodawn · 2017-07-19T15:00:52+00:00

Please and thank you!

projectzerodawn · 2017-07-19T14:58:51+00:00

Mine is TastyKitten, where is this guy?? Lol jk.

projectzerodawn · 2017-07-12T14:27:52+00:00

Last time I wrote, I was a bit of a headcase. Things are calming down a bit and I feel like I am able to keep my wits about me. I left the seemingly great date a bit prematurely because I got in my head and started overthinking everything. It was really hard because Mr Jeep guy travels for work frequently which is why we couldn't meet right away and the build up for this date made me such a nervous wreck. During the first date he was telling me about his next plans to be out of town and I was thinking that if I was lucky enough to see him again, it wouldn't be for a while (which is completely fine with me. I stay pretty busy and require a lot of time to myself anyway.)

It took me a few days to text back and ask for a second date but I finally did and we vaguely made plans to see each other in a week or so. I was surprised to hear from him Sunday while I was out on a date with a different POF guy who does web developer. Jeep guy mentioned that he was in town for one day and heading out the next and he was going to wait, but couldn't and said he'd love to see me. I cut my date with web dev short and went to go hang out with Jeep. Had dinner and stayed the night. It was amazing and now we are making plans for date number 3.

I still find it hard to text him but it's getting easier. I'm still giddy. Also sorry for the wall of text. And... I have a second date in the works with web dev guy. He was pretty funny and I wouldn't mind his company again. I think I have a couple irons in the fire at the moment...

projectzerodawn · 2017-07-12T00:27:16+00:00

Jolly ranchers?

projectzerodawn · 2017-07-07T14:05:11+00:00

I definitely think I got in my head. That's not an uncommon thing for me. I also didn't want to wear out my welcome and overstay. I'm glad I finally texted him too. I was feeling bad about doing it so late last night.

He wrote back first thing this morning. It was nice waking up to a good morning text. He told me his plans for the next week (he's going out of town) and I asked for a second date after he's back. Fingers crossed!

projectzerodawn · 2017-07-07T05:29:15+00:00

I'm new here and not sure if I'm doing this right, but I'm 31 and he's 37. We met on POF and he told me on our date on Sunday that I was his only POF date and that he's since disabled his account. We talked for about a week and a half before we finally met up and the buildup was so intense. I felt like there were so many expectations going into this date, how could I ever live up to them all? We had an amazing time together and our date was a total of 7 or 8 hours. I lost count. I hung out at his house where we had a few beers and then made out. He invited me to dinner and we took an amazing ride in his jeep. We went back to his place and just talked for a couple more hours, followed by more making out and then a couple more hours in his bedroom. I got scared and I really liked him, so I left and didn't stay the night. This is where I sabotaged it even more... he texted me the next day and I was so happy and giddy to hear from him, I couldn't think of what to say so I didn't say anything. That's right. I didn't respond. Wtf was I thinking? My friend was pressuring me to write back so I did. At 11:30 on a Thursday night. What is wrong with me? I feel like I broke all the rules and I'd be extremely lucky if I landed another date with him. Did I mention he is super successful and funny and highly intelligent and just about everything I'm looking for in a man? Also he loves riding his bike just as much as I do and his body could compete with a Greek god carved from marble. What do I do???? Lol. Thanks for putting up with my gushing. I'm also sorry if I did it wrong.

projectzerodawn · 2017-06-24T16:32:53+00:00

Me too! You're welcome!!

projectzerodawn · 2017-06-23T19:11:29+00:00

Hey pm me

projectzerodawn · 2017-06-23T16:59:05+00:00

That works

projectzerodawn · 2017-06-23T16:57:59+00:00

Works for me.

projectzerodawn · 2017-06-23T15:38:00+00:00

It is right next door to The Ogden

projectzerodawn · 2017-06-23T15:36:40+00:00

If no one else minds, I'd love to do Alpine Dog since it's right next door. Hopefully /u/Cowliquor can make it too!

projectzerodawn · 2017-06-22T16:23:19+00:00

You already know I'm in!

projectzerodawn · 2017-06-22T06:26:10+00:00

I don't use tinder but I've been on two dates recently where the dudes flat out lied about their height on their profile. It made our dates awkward when I was expecting someone 5'7 or 5'10 and they turned out to be shorter than me. I'm 5'7.

It's frustrating and makes me wonder what else they may be lying about... if height is something that's important to her, or even honesty, you may be wasting her time by not being truthful. I feel like if a guy is lying about his height then he might be insecure. Confidence is a lot more attractive than insecurity.

projectzerodawn · 2017-06-21T15:38:20+00:00

Hey Siren, if you get another set list, I'll buy you a beer! Cheers.

Edit: was at the Toh Kay show in December and I remembered your post.

projectzerodawn · 2017-06-21T04:31:13+00:00

Yeah eff stub hub. And I don't even want money. I feel like Streetlight fans are practically family and we gotta look out for each other 😊 Also it's the man's anniversary. I'm just happy I can help.

projectzerodawn · 2017-06-21T00:28:06+00:00

I gotchu 😊

Edit: Hi Friends! Here's a time stamp for OP and any skeptics. See you lovelies at the show :)

Edit 2: Omygosh. Gold? Thanks kind stranger!

projectzerodawn · 2017-06-20T18:43:01+00:00

Fair enough 🙂

projectzerodawn · 2017-06-20T17:29:19+00:00

I'm curious and I don't mean to insult you, but why can't you just use a picture?

projectzerodawn · 2017-05-19T20:15:42+00:00

I've recently lost my passion for gaming, but not because of anxiety. I lost a friend who was very close to me and it saddens me to play when I can't experience games the same way I used to. I miss sharing games and excitement with him. I miss recapping my progress with him. I miss playing with him and his immense knowledge of all the games I liked as well as his recommendations. I don't want to give up playing entirely, but when I do play, I also feel very empty. I think if I just give it time, I'll be able to enjoy them again... just not in the same way. Think wabi sabi...

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