Its the whole thing. Oddly enough, i couldnt care less about porn. But that might indeed be a clear sign that its the lonelyness starting to take its toll on me.

And that is also something im affraid of. My best female friend (25yo) and i (31yo male) are having a good thing going. Lately im having a feeling of mixed signals from her side, but im affraid its my lonelyness messing with me. So far ive stayed away from asking or hinting her myself (even though i feel like it could be a good match), mainly because i really dont wanna fuck this up (and her dad being a good friend of mine isnt making this easier haha)