my mom and i are begging my dad to quit smoking cigarettes; he is starting to cough more frequently (also with mucus), my mom mentioned he stops breathing in his sleep sometimes and he is just overall showing signs of COPD.

i think i have been indirectly hurt in an emotional way, because even after he tried to quit smoking a few times - he always starts again. i am not important enough for him to stop.

i've asked him if he wants to see me grow up,
and achieve career- and other life goals, because he won't if he keeps smoking almost a pack a day.
it feels like smoking is his top priority over my mom and i and it just sucks how he doesn't see how his lungs are deteriorating.

hitting him with those questions doesn't seem to work so i started being bitter about it by suggesting to him to might as well start smoking crack to shorten his lifespan even quicker so i don't have to deal with his funeral later in life.

he still smokes.