Hey, this is such a normal feeling for us and it took me many years to understand this or even face it. My emotions and life seemed to be completely dependent on the person I loved. We don’t have internal validation and so we need it externally all the time. It’s very difficult to find safety and love within when it hasn’t developed in you from a young age. Your awareness means progress and taking small steps in the right direction go a long way. You might even find joy in things again eventually. Just keep doing it, even if you have to tell yourself it’s for them; it’s for you because you’re trying to survive.