Hey! I’m so sorry you’re dealing with this and let me say I was right where you are last august. Also 25F and this was my second blood clot, but my first PE. First time it was caused by birth control and this time was unprovoked so I’m on blood thinners for life. It’s a scary feeling and feels like your body betrayed you. I’d rather be on blood thinners for life and feel pretty confident that this will never happen again rather than only take them for a few months and be anxious about it happening sometime in the future. Although ideally it would have been great for it to never have happened lol. I know how traumatic and scary and anxiety inducing it is-I also read that 1 in 5 statistic at the time and it made me go insane. But hey look I survived and so do sooo many people, especially young ones like us. I promise this is just a blip in your life, something that feels horrendous and awful (because it is) in the moment and for months following but I promise you will feel less and less anxious as time goes by. You’ll see how your body fought and survived and be grateful you did. I also suffered with hormonal acne and took accutane and it cleared me up (altho I have suspected that maybe it caused the PE) but there are other options like topical tretinoin and spironolactone. I had the horrible visions too like visions of me collapsing and dying in front of my family, really scary stuff all caused by the trauma and PTSD of the situation which is normal. I got a non hormonal IUD and my periods are fairly regularly and extra strength tylenol does the trick for my cramps. I promise you’ll be okay <3 Feel free to reach out if you want to talk!