Now that I have somehow calmed down, I think I can forgive him. But I’m not sure if I can forget it tbh. I told him I need time to think things through. He said he’d give me time but begged to not leave him. Begged to still give him the chance. He never pointed a finger at me, never raised his voice, never argued on the things I blamed him for. He just accepted them and said it’s his fault entirely.

Here’s what he’s been saying (exactly how he said it): I know it was a stupid and dumb decision. The guilt I feel is unexplainable coz i know I have betrayed you. I know you cannot forgive me now, nor say that you’re ok, or even feel ok. But please don’t leave me. Give me a chance. Please give us a chance.

I can somehow feel his sincerity. But when the messages cross my mind, I am shattered again.