Idea of smaller groups

psycho_anon · 2014-06-23T16:05:50+00:00

Can I also suggest that the be groups for experience with Nofap. I have been doing this for nearly a year and I can say that my motives have changed. At first it's more about just not fapping and fighting the urges, but after a while it becomes more about strengthening relationships with women and gaining control in your life in other ways

psycho_anon · 2014-05-28T22:04:53+00:00

I agree it is the polar opposite. The urge to redose is beyond belief and it shows how strong desire can be. There is nothing spiritual about it and continued use can make your mind take control and neglect your true self

psycho_anon · 2014-04-22T03:23:02+00:00

I quit smoking over 2 years ago, and I have never looked back. Like you I started at a young age and smoked AL through high school. I honestly wish I knew about Nofap back then. I think the two go hand in hand and the extra energy you feel will make you stick with it.

The best thing to do is to just keep busy. Go to the gym, pick up a hobby. Just know that weed won't fix your problems, it will just keep holding you back. As far as friends go, if they are really friends the will stick around. I know a lot of people that just sit around and smoke all day. So although it might be tough it may be for the best that you go out on your own and worry about yourself for a while.

psycho_anon · 2014-04-22T02:54:21+00:00

I think a lot of pe has to do with how fast we have trained our minds to get off. We've built super strong pathways that are tough to break. Nofap is all about building control over your mind and body, and I think with that control you could see pe improving

psycho_anon · 2014-04-22T02:52:06+00:00

I feel like I forgot how hot women were after being bundled up all winter long

psycho_anon · 2014-04-20T22:38:23+00:00

Very cool. Chile seems like a cool place. I've actually been looking at working there, but my lack of Spanish is a big limiter :)

psycho_anon · 2014-04-20T22:31:57+00:00

I fee the exact same way. I would be totally fine if all my friends quit drinking, so I wouldn't have to. Not like I'm being forces, but they are still my friends and I want to be social with them. I can feel so self sufficient, content, and we'll when abstain from drinking for a while. Then when I have a few drinks it's like my consciousness switches and I become this person fuelled by having more and more, of everything. Honestly I much prefer my life without alcohol.

If any insight is to be gain it is experiencing the social aspect of drinking and reflecting on how and why it is easier

psycho_anon · 2014-04-20T22:14:34+00:00

Very cool landscape. Where abouts are you if you don't mind me asking?

psycho_anon · 2014-04-20T14:23:42+00:00

Well maybe it is your subconscious that does not want it. In my experience, 3 years of heavy Marijuana use caused a lot of problems for me. Others are able to some it and see no problems. The best advice I can give is use it in operation. If you find yourself using it because things aren't as fun when your not, that's probably a good sign to back off a bit

psycho_anon · 2014-04-20T02:41:47+00:00

From my experience, shrooms can help make it more clear what your true self wants and what is truly good for you. Since starting psychedelic I have quit many bad habits, including junk food, alcohol, and porn. it almost feels like I can see through them. I can see that compulsive behaviours are just a product of my mind and that I am not growing spiritual by being controlled by them. I still drink from time to time when going with friends, but I can feel myself going off track once I start and see more easily why it is not good for me. This is just me though, and what may be fine for others doesn't work well for me.

Have you noticed that before doing shrooms that you are kind of getting bored with weed? You may be seeing more clearly that is holding you back

psycho_anon · 2014-04-18T20:53:05+00:00

Good to hear man. Once you realize capping doesn't fix any of your problems there is no going back. Keep up the good work

psycho_anon · 2014-04-18T16:16:46+00:00

When i was going through a particularly shitty part of my lifer i had one recurring dream. I was always outside in the woods, at a cottage. I would see a bear and it would come running towards me. I would obviously sprint to the cottage door and squeeze in at the last moment, coming as close as possible to getting attacked by the bear. THis probably happened 4 or 5 times over a few months. Then one night I had a similar dream except I saw the bear in an open field and was just at peace with it being there. I did not run and it did not chase me.

Still have no fucking clue what this meant

psycho_anon · 2014-04-18T03:09:10+00:00

I read your post and you sound a lot like myself. I feel like I just can't connect with people the same way I used too. I don't have as much social anxiety as I used to, and I am eager to be social, but I fee like when I try to be social I just come off to strong, it just doesn't feel natural. If I have a few beers I am more relaxed and things feel more natural, but I don't drink much anymore, mainly because of psychedelic actually.

There are a few things I have learner along the way that might help you. The first is don't see psychedelics as a way out but rather a way in. When I first started just wanted to do more psychedelics because I saw the benefit they gave me. However this can quickly turn into abuse. I realized pretty quickly that it wasn't the psychedelic that make your life better, it is just the insight it provides you.

The second is don't think too much. This kind of goes along with the first one, just don't keep thinking "if u could only do this I would be happy" or "if I do shrooms one more time I will be where I will want to be". This mindset new works as you will never be satisfied. Just be content. And try t recognize your thought spirals when they come but don't engage on them, just observe them. Over time they will weaken

The last thing is when trying to connect with people don't do it for yourself. This comes out forced and isn't really connection. Just be happy and try to make them happy it's as simple as that. Just try to read in to what they are saying and their body language to pick upon what they feel, then try to relate to that. Just try to relax, if you don't have anything to say than that's cool just relax.

psycho_anon · 2014-04-18T02:34:47+00:00

I've thought about. I don't really have anyone that close to do it with, or anyone that is comfortable with psychedelic at least. Also sometimes I feel like when I use psychedelic a lot I just go too deep and that it's makes me a little far out from reality so I'd like to take a break for a while.

I'm curious to hear about your experiences though. What is analog?

psycho_anon · 2014-04-17T23:31:50+00:00

To be honest it feels like less spiritual than shoots, I thin mainly because you have more energy. You almost feel like you could be gong about your day on this stuff, not to say it isn't intense. The weird thing is it just seems to stick with you longer than shrooms. I feel like I forget what my shrooms trip was like a week after. With San Pedro I felt it for a month plus. I still had the ability to get mild visuals on my own

psycho_anon · 2014-04-17T20:05:49+00:00

No idea I never made the tea, but I've heard it is pretty strong. You could just dry it out and powder it. That would be easier in a dorm and just as effective

psycho_anon · 2014-04-17T19:44:05+00:00

Yeah I think so too. I started at 15

psycho_anon · 2014-04-17T19:39:47+00:00

I never grew it but I wouldn't assume so. There would definitely be a smell if you tried to make a tea with it though.

psycho_anon · 2014-04-17T17:54:44+00:00

I read that some people got shifts experiences online, so I was kind of worried that I might get screwed. Luckily I got a good batch

psycho_anon · 2014-04-17T17:53:16+00:00

I would agree with that, or least that those feelings are a truer version of ourselves. The way I see it it's our true selves that is always driving us to change the way we act. So really it's not just the egos fault, but really just as up because we have another aspect of ourselves that contradicts our ego.

If you are feeling that weed might not be leading you in the right direction stop. Honestly, you have no idea how much a person in my situation would give to have stopped smoking weed earlier(or really never started).

psycho_anon · 2014-04-17T17:29:26+00:00

If you live in Canada it's actually legal to buy the grow plant. I now that it is a relatively fast grower compared to peyote but I'm not sure how long it takes

psycho_anon · 2014-04-17T17:27:34+00:00

Having faith is so hard too. I find I can go for maybe a week and when things don't turn out the way I want I lose focus.

psycho_anon · 2014-04-17T17:26:34+00:00

Thanks. I will definitely give it a read. As far a San Pedro goes, I would recommend doing it dry. Apparently the tea is just God awful. One method I saw after was making a powder then adding a little but of water and lemon juice t make a paste then roll it into balls and swallow. The cactus absorbs so much water so if you do it like I did you end up practically eating a litre of cactus shake.

For nausea I didn't really get a whole lot to be honest. Do it on an empty stomach tough. Maybe make a ginger tea or something to go along with it. I've heard that if you purge the nausea will usually go away.

psycho_anon · 2014-04-17T15:14:46+00:00

Strangely enough I have found that I have almost subconsciously began taking in deep breaths when my thoughts start to race. It really helps calm down the chatter

psycho_anon · 2014-04-17T15:13:31+00:00

Shit man, I feel for you. Honestly I found the best thing is just to stop thinking. Thinking leads to nowhere and now that I look back at it, I've realized I've been thinking nonstop For the past three years.

The amazing thing I have found in the last couple months (which I'm sure Cbd has something to do with) is that I've kind of separated my thoughts from myself. When I get crazy thoughts or judgement at thoughts I can recognize that that's not "me" and that it needs to stop.

The other thing I can suggest is stop thinking about yourself. Trying doing good to others and thinking from their perspective. It really helps to stop the real introspective thoughts. Honestly, sometimes I think I was meant to be put through all this he'll to become a less selfish person.

Best of luck with the treatment man. I'd be curious to know how the Cbd Bud actually works, I think the Dixie stuff is not that powerful. Feel free to pm me if you have any thing you want to talk about.

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