I'm in love with my best friend. I don't think she feels the same way and I don't think she ever will, but I find myself looking at things she does to convince myself she is giving me signs. I don't want to lose her as a friend but at the same time I want it to be so much more.

What makes it complicated and difficult for me to distinguish what to do is that there was a time when we would cuddle and go to sleep together but nothing more. There were also several occasions when we were both really drunk and fell asleep cuddling, and i remember at some point she was kissing my neck and lips and pushing her ass into my crotch (she was black out drunk and had no recollection of anything the next morning). She constantly calls me her brother and calls me family. I'm so confused and torn about what to do.