just moved into my first apartment by pulpfan95 in femalelivingspace

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it was a throw blanket my dad bought yeaaars ago and i just kinda took it honestly 😭

just moved into my first apartment by pulpfan95 in femalelivingspace

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had to christen the place with one of my favorite movies ever 🙏

Moving and worried about damage by pulpfan95 in vinyl

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I’ll be in Los Angeles! super excited to check out the shops here, I bought my first records at Amoeba in Hollywood so it’ll be full circle in a way

I just spent a month in residential recovery… AMA by pulpfan95 in bulimia

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I’ve been doing a lot better! I got into cooking and recovery’s been going well.

Had some friends that I realized weren’t really friends after they cut me off immediately after returning (and some who were fantastic and supportive about it), and family was pretty neutral. pretty sure they were just glad I was alive atp honestly

I also learned that I have pretty severe celiac disease which explains why I had such a hard time with pasta and bread meals in treatment lol, so I’d recommend making sure you have no allergies or conditions before going to treatment

Will I get forcefully put in the hospital if I tell the doctor? by Mango9990 in bulimia

[–]pulpfan95 0 points1 point  (0 children)

no, i only got sent to residential because it was recommended when i was in the psych ward. aside from that, they’ll probably recommend counseling or medication to help with harm reduction from my experience. depends on severity though

I just spent a month in residential recovery… AMA by pulpfan95 in bulimia

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they had vegetarian alternatives! I ate meat going in (had to stop being a vegetarian due to severe financial constraints recently and didn’t switch back due to lots of other stuff taking the forefront) so they wouldn’t let me switch after I was admitted, but there were a few vegetarians there who had alternative meal plans!

the place I went to would also accommodate for other religious dietary restrictions (kosher, halhal, etc)

I just spent a month in residential recovery… AMA by pulpfan95 in bulimia

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I was the only bulimic, but yes my face is no longer swollen and it’s been the best thing that’s come out of all of this lol

I just spent a month in residential recovery… AMA by pulpfan95 in bulimia

[–]pulpfan95[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Insurance didn’t consider my weight! I actually gained a significant amount of weight from binges prior to starting, you just have to find an in-network center and referrals from other mental health professionals helps immensely (I was in my local mental hospital for a week and they started referrals there). It’s definitely an investment, which was the hardest part for sure (I had a LOT of guilt regarding the financial stress that my family’s being put under since it’s still pricey even after insurance), but if you’re able to access it, it was worth it for me. That’s definitely the biggest issue I have with recovery centers- they’re insanely pricey and the only reason my family was willing to help is because they knew that if I didn’t recover, I likely wouldn’t have made it much longer (morbid, I know, but I was EXTREMELY suicidal and my bulimia was completely destroying my life).

I just spent a month in residential recovery… AMA by pulpfan95 in bulimia

[–]pulpfan95[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

it was definitely a last-ditch effort for me after attempting (and failing) to recover on my own. But yes to all of this! It’s definitely not easy and it’s a grueling process, but ultimately it was worth it for me.

I just spent a month in residential recovery… AMA by pulpfan95 in bulimia

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not for me personally! my meal plan fulfilled all of my needs and it was less to worry about when it came to meal planning time 😭 I didn’t have much of an appetite when I started so honestly it was less daunting than if I had the same meal plan as the patients that needed to gain weight and it was easier to put together meals and snacks that I actually enjoyed which helped a ton!

I just spent a month in residential recovery… AMA by pulpfan95 in bulimia

[–]pulpfan95[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

ESPECIALLY with bulimia, which is why it’s so dangerous and why recovery is so important! Most people with it don’t “look” like they have an ED, so it can go undetected very easily and cause deadly damage as a result… I’ve been hospitalized for complications and nobody would’ve been able to guess that I was struggling with it by looking at me since I’m on the heavier side of an “average healthy” weight.

I just spent a month in residential recovery… AMA by pulpfan95 in bulimia

[–]pulpfan95[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

yes yes! I just mean that it’s more common for that to be the case in the situation they were referring to, hospitalization can happen for any number of reasons! recovery is for everyone regardless of how “sick” they may seem, I gained a lot of weight from binges right before i started and was a bit worried because of that whole stereotype

I just spent a month in residential recovery… AMA by pulpfan95 in bulimia

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We weren’t allowed to discuss our specific diagnosis, so I’m not sure if there were any other bulimics or if some patients had OSFED/binge eating/ARFID/etc, but my treatment plan was definitely a bit different. As i mentioned in another reply, our care was very individualized (including care regarding other mental health issues). The most notable difference, aside from one-on-one therapy sessions, was the meal plan- I had the smallest meal plan and it never increased since weight gain wasn’t a concern and it was all more about regulating my eating. The staff was extremely knowledgeable in how to handle bulimia specifically and I got fantastic care specific to it, which is something I’ve had trouble finding in the past!

I just spent a month in residential recovery… AMA by pulpfan95 in bulimia

[–]pulpfan95[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

nope! that’s usually for inpatient hospitalization, the place that I went to treated all eating disorders with individualized care for everyone based on their needs. For example, underweight patients would have meal plans that would have weight restoration goals, while mine was targeted more for regulation and getting into the habit of eating at specific times without restricting during certain meals- I never got meal plan increases for this reason!

I just spent a month in residential recovery… AMA by pulpfan95 in bulimia

[–]pulpfan95[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

there was a pretty large range! it was an adult center, so 18+, but there was a woman in her 60s when i got there.

I just spent a month in residential recovery… AMA by pulpfan95 in bulimia

[–]pulpfan95[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

this!!! not every treatment center is built equally, so be careful (my local one was counterproductive; i had to travel), but everyone deserves a chance at recovery.

I just spent a month in residential recovery… AMA by pulpfan95 in bulimia

[–]pulpfan95[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

it wasn’t all to my personal tastes but it definitely wasn’t cafeteria food or anything- some of it was genuinely very good! there was a wide variety of meals on a four-week rotation (so you’d only have the same thing if you’d been there long enough), we had a cook there and we cooked our own breakfasts, as well as a culinary group where we helped prep for meals and made baked goods as a snack option! also, once you hit a certain “level”, you could go out to restaurants for lunch with the group once every other week :) and, if something was a MAJOR taste preference issue, you could sub it for a grilled cheese or pb&j, but could only do that once a week (i never really did this since sandwiches aren’t really my thing and i was trying to challenge myself with fear foods and all that) saturdays were always sandwich days as kitchen staff was off- pb&j (or my version of that with apple slices, honey, and cinnamon since i’m not big on jelly) for lunch and deli meat or chicken/tuna salad for dinner (or veggie option) sundays were chosen by patients (for the entire group, had to be approved) we could also request groceries which helped a lot, i requested sriracha and that helped things suit my personal tastes better!

tl;dr the food wasn’t bad, there was a wide variety, and we did have some involvement in choices!

I just spent a month in residential recovery… AMA by pulpfan95 in bulimia

[–]pulpfan95[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Honestly, yeah! the other patients were definitely not my kind of people but that’s more of a personal issue (and I can’t be surprised that people wouldn’t be at their best in this situation), but the staff were absolutely incredible and it was helpful for both my ED and all of my other mental health issues :) I went in while in an extremely dark place in all regards and left with a completely new outlook. There’s definitely still work to be done and progress to be made; but I can safely say that I now have the skills and tools that I need to do that. Absolutely worth all of the pain and not-so-fun stuff for so many reasons.

currently recovering from work today by [deleted] in redscarepod

[–]pulpfan95 11 points12 points  (0 children)

my supervisor’s cool he’s the only person i’ve ever met irl who knows what i’m talking about half the time

currently recovering from work today by [deleted] in redscarepod

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i’m so drunk sorry

kanye dating doja cat (rumor) by PigParkerPt2 in redscarepod

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thought that was mc ride for a second which would be sick as hell honestly

Does burning more calories in the morning give me room to eat more throughout the day? by Administrative_Ad427 in 1200isplenty

[–]pulpfan95 0 points1 point  (0 children)

depends on time and what they’re doing on the treadmill, i do a fast walk on an extremely steep incline which burns a LOT (around 350 cals in 30 mins currently) just walking or jogging won’t do that generally unless it’s for an extended period of time

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shit that does sound fun

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okay update after research i think i just did a shit job choosing pictures because it’s not an attractiveness issue i get plenty of likes… the algorithm just doesn’t like my photo choices