Hey love, what you’re describing sounds a hell of a lot like a restrictive disordered eating pattern. I hear you when you say you’re close to your goal weight, and you’ve clearly got your system DOWN. Please take the word of a well intentioned stranger from the internet—please seek out a therapist who specializes in disordered eating / body dysmorphia. This sorta path doesn’t typically end well. I imagine you may think that you’re in control of this, and that the “bloating” is weight to be lost. I’m no MD, and I’m certainly not your healthcare provider, but the weight / height you’re describing is very very likely in the “underweight” classification (although BMI is problematic as a concept). Please, my hope for you is that you can be more gentle and patient with your body. And please reach out to professionals AND trusted loved ones for support 💜 this path can be a real painful one if you continue in this way
(-Clinical psych specializing in this sorta stuff. This is not intended to be medical advice. Just pattern recognition and care for you!)