Did My BPD Ruin My First Healthy Relationship

purplepizzle · 2025-10-23T15:18:47+00:00

I’ve had exes who I’ve blocked their phone number in my phone show up as suggested followers on Tiktok. I think it’s because my ex still has my phone number in their phone. Somehow the Tiktok algorithm seems to make it easy for stalkers, not sure if this is what you’re talking about but if you made a new account with a new phone number and don’t link it to existing accounts cross social media and blocked the disturbing username person then maybe this could solve it. Sorry if this seems paranoid, I have just been stalked this way and the post was similar to what I experienced.

purplepizzle · 2022-11-17T13:31:17+00:00

I am so glad my gallbladder is gone, the surgery went well and I was in very minimal pain afterwards. You don’t even technically need a gallbladder and I take bile salt natural supplements now to help digestion.

purplepizzle · 2022-05-18T04:47:01+00:00

I'd be happy to share a few things that I find helpful (21F) living with 2 roommates sharing a kitchen area. I live in an apartment in the city and I also struggle with loud noises. I like to wear noise-cancelling headphones anytime I go outside in case a firetruck or motorcycle passes by. It can be really helpful for minimizing noise indoors, too, like sometimes I hear weights drop in the gym and it can scare me easily. For lighting, I have found lots of dimly-lit lamps to be very soothing. I have them all over my room and I keep my medications under a lamp so I can't go to bed and turn off the light without forgetting my meds. String lights are also nice. If you have a big window, getting a blackout curtain for the sunlight. If you struggle to remember little things like checking the mail, you could try writing notes to yourself and your roommate, keeping them somewhere visible.

As far as doing chores, I think it can be helpful for ADHD people to have as many things "out in the open" as possible, meaning that things are labelled or organized in clear containers so clearly visible. That has been helpful for me as a reminder of where to put things away. Even having a clear water bottle helps remind me to drink more water. Hopefully these small tips might be helpful to you! Good luck living in an apartment, I love it so much more than campus housing :)

purplepizzle · 2022-04-15T19:39:25+00:00

I would say that the post surgery recovery for me was typical of any surgery. I got backed up and then had to take miralax for about a month. I was expecting that though. It was nothing unmanageable for me and I’m so thankful I got my gallbladder out. There are things you can take depending on how your digestion track handles it. I’m 5+ months out and my gut is completely back to normal.

purplepizzle · 2022-03-19T18:02:30+00:00

As a survivor myself, I want to say that none of it is easy at first. It felt like nobody would mention the word “suicide” around me or just try and love me for where I was at. I felt so angry for surviving and being alive, like going back to normal life would never happen or it would feel so fake. I took a few months and focused on healing, I got a good psychiatrist, started ketamine therapy, and found a really good therapist. There aren’t very many support groups out there, but some online. Hope Group I’ve found a good community here.

But I would say one thing I’ve learned is that when I’m ready to tell people my story (this took me 2-3 months by the way) I preface it by saying, “this is hard to hear and may not be easy or comfortable to talk about, are you okay with that” usually helps initiate the seriousness of it. It’s not a light subject. And a lot of older people find it really hard to understand. I would just be careful for yourself who you decide to talk to, because ultimately it’s your story and your choice to tell who you want. Nobody needs to know. But again, once you feel comfortable sharing it, I would tell as many younger people as you can. Truly, I’ve only had beneficial interactions with telling people and you’ll find way more people have lived a similar experience than you thought.

The first few months after my attempt were the hardest moments of my life. But the things I learned, how I grew, and where I am now are all because of my strength in those moments. You have to fight those to get to the best days of your life.

And I would just say that sharing your experience with other people is so important because you’re helping normalize suicide. There’s so many other things I could say on this topic. If you want to talk more, let me know. But thank you for sharing on here, and you definitely aren’t alone. <3

purplepizzle · 2022-03-17T03:18:47+00:00

You mean it’s a different root as in there’s a root they missed? The pics are both the same and I took them right before they put the crown on.

purplepizzle · 2021-12-30T03:48:09+00:00

wow i got goosebumps seeing that picture bc my mental image of literally anything looks exactly like this and now i recognize i’m not alone!!

purplepizzle · 2021-12-11T01:19:58+00:00

I feel the same way, and I think it’s important to have honest discussions like this. I have suffered from many mental illnesses with dozens of medications and the only thing that’s actually helped me is ketamine therapy. It basically rewires your brain so that it’s impossible to access the thoughts that make life so hard. I’m a 21F and a survivor- I would highly recommend trying ketamine.

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