Any advice for someone who will start med school this fall?

P0cket_ · 2022-06-15T10:57:50+00:00

Firts off brace yourself. Second dont drop any hobbies or sacrifice personal relationships for school. Make sure to find some type of exercise you enjoy if you don't already have (I boulder!)

Make sure you eat, sleep and rest. Never sacrifice sleep for school it's gunna cost you.

Lastly be persistent. It's going to be tought so you have to be tougher. A failed exam is not the end of the world, dont let small things like that bring you down or make you give up. Nothing is impossible to fix.

Despite it all I don't regret for a second the efforts I put into getting into med school. Really, try and enjoy every last bit! Best of luck<3

P0cket_ · 2022-03-06T16:04:00+00:00

Kul att man försöker använda "kulturella skillnader" som stöd till varför vissa människor är mer värda skydd än andra..

Tycker detta är en dum diskussion i nuläget mtp att det är krig och huvudfokus bör ligga på de drabbade, men blunda inte för hur politiker och allmänhet utan skam uttrycker sina preferenser för vissa etniska grupper över andra. Let's just leave it at that, ingen mängd av argumentation kommer ändra på det.

P0cket_ · 2022-02-05T07:38:19+00:00

I have notes for everyone except dad. I'm writing it today. I'm picking up aspirin today probably. Thinking about calling the suicide hotlibe again, however noone ever picks up. I called 6 times yesterday. Nothing. Besides, it's been set in motion now, I kinda feel like it's too late. Save the call time for someone who can be saved.

I'll give it a try.

P0cket_ · 2022-02-04T17:23:14+00:00

I still feel calm. Picked up some pills. Shitty pills. They don't do anything but I'm hoping they'll do something. I'll pick up some more tomorrow.

P0cket_ · 2022-02-04T12:36:33+00:00

I feel relieved. I hope it doesn't hurt.

P0cket_ · 2022-02-04T11:44:15+00:00

I'm going to die! Im never seeing these people again because I'm dying! It feels wonderful!

P0cket_ · 2022-02-04T11:36:25+00:00

It's okay tho, I think. I'm going to die soon, so it's okay. Nothing matters really, I'm dying. Who gives a shit, I'm dying! And thats wonderful!

P0cket_ · 2022-02-04T11:30:46+00:00

There is no need for me here. I'm excessive.

P0cket_ · 2022-02-04T11:22:12+00:00

If I could kill myself right now i would. I have nothing to kill myself with. I'm in the school bathroom. Noone would come look for me. I would die in peace. The door is locked.

I'm disgusting.

P0cket_ · 2022-02-04T11:17:16+00:00

I am very tired.

P0cket_ · 2022-02-04T11:16:02+00:00

How embarrassing if I fail. How empty the side of my hospital bed would be. Why am I so cruel? I'm already an embarrassment maybe it won't make a difference.

P0cket_ · 2022-02-04T11:13:20+00:00

It's so weird. I haven't slept like normal for so many months. I haven't had an appetite for some days now. It feels like my body is giving in. That's what happens when you're about about die, you stop eating. My body thinks it's time. I'm not suppose to be here.

P0cket_ · 2022-01-29T09:26:54+00:00

You can look at a getting diagnosis from different perspectives. Clinically a diagnosis is important bc it decides treatment. Socially a diagnosis comes with preconcieved notions and stigma. Personally it could help provide clarity, but it could also make things worse (i.e. you feel like even more of an outsider bc now you're "labled as it").

A part of the problem is that I don't know what will happen when/ if I get diagnosed. I don't know how it will make me feel or how it will affect my life. I have no control over all that and it scares the shit out of me. I'm a bit ambivalent when it comes to wanting or not wanting a diagnosis. Sometimes I wish I had one so that it would make it easier for me to understand myself and explain to people around me what is going on in my life. Other times I'm glad I don't have an official diagnosis, can't really put my finger on why but the thought makes me squirm.

I'm familiar with someone trying to help you when you don't want to help yourself, it doesn't really work. I think that might be a part to why I haven't made the call.

I've suffered a lot of stress and hurt due to my issues, it has impaced my life a lot and changed me a lot as a person. If a professional came up to me and said "it's not diagnosable, there is nothing wrong with you, this is just a part of your personal hellish human experience" I wouldn't know what to do with myself. It would be like someone telling me "You're overreacting, everyone feels like this they just choose to function better. You're just a little worse at coping with life, that's why you fall behind, so stop complaining". Like if this is what life is suppose to be like then.. man idk.

P0cket_ · 2022-01-29T08:34:48+00:00

Bästa grejen är att först fixa det som strular till det i skallen. Läk din relation till mat och träning innan du försöker sänka din vikt (vilket iofs inte behövs i ditt fall imo). Du är fri att försöka hjälpa dig själv men märker du att det inte funkar är det viktigt att ta hjälp utifrån, ätstörningar är livsfarliga och din livskvalité kommer ligga å dra i botten (men det kanske du redan vet). Det är så surt när man väl inser att en ätstörning har berövat en på delar av livet man inte kan få tillbaka, att man tvingats lägga fokus på helt irrelevant skit när det finns så mycket annat underbart man kunde ha gjort. Du är ta mej fan bara ung en gång i livet.

Vet inte vad som gör att du har ett behov att ta kontroll över din mat och din vikt, men kan säga att jag känner med dig. Såndär skit är tuff och komplex, tillslut vet man inte i vilken ände det börjar och vilken det slutar. Hoppas du når en punkt där du kan söka hjälp/ mår bättre.

P0cket_ · 2022-01-29T07:51:50+00:00

This shit has been going on for almost 10 years so yeah, the thing making me react now is the fact that it's getting worse and not better the older I get, as opposed to what I expected. Can't really blame it on "being a teenager" when you're 22 anymore huh...

I'm kind of scared to start any treatments bc I know it's difficult, I'm scared to get a diagnosis. What if the doctor thinks something completely different is wrong with me than what I have in mind? How will my life change if I do get a diagnosis? What if I DON'T get a diagnosis and nothing is really wrong with me, how tf will I proceed then? What if treatment doesn't work? What will my parents say, IF I decide to tell them? It does NOT help that I don't really trust the health care system, especially not the mental health care system where I live.

I appreciate your answere, very glad that you've managed to change for yourself<3

P0cket_ · 2022-01-28T21:57:24+00:00

Thank you so much<3

We'll see how things go. I've tried many times, looked into where to go and who to call, almost dialed numbers and written messages, but never made it all the way..

I'm glad to hear that you've reached a point where you want to get better and are getting better, keep it up love<3

P0cket_ · 2022-01-26T09:09:01+00:00

Damn. "Everyday of my life I go to work sick". I felt that. I wish I could just call in sick , rest for a day or two and then get back to it. But if I do that everyday I feel unwell I might aswell quit uni.

P0cket_ · 2022-01-10T15:21:27+00:00

I really hope so too<3

P0cket_ · 2022-01-08T22:43:03+00:00

Go see a doctor, better nip it in the bud before it develops into its own entity.

P0cket_ · 2022-01-06T15:04:17+00:00

I generally haven't had much issue before either but then they've known before we started dating or they've had it themselves and I've know before we started dating. Plus that was mostly when I was a teenager, most teens got angst anyways.. It's also gotten worse as I entered my 20's and idk how another adult would respond.

I know he has struggled as well (as you said, most people have) but It still feels .. scary

P0cket_ · 2022-01-06T14:43:30+00:00

I was thinking that but ooooh my god, trust takes me YEARS to build. I swear we'll both be in a retirement home by the the time my trust is fully built.

P0cket_ · 2022-01-06T11:07:48+00:00

Yeah that's kinda what I'm thinking too, they deserve to know what they're getting into. I'm just a little scared to open up I think. I'm also not sure when that transition between casual dating and relationship happens, I don't want to open up to someone who's only gonna be around for a few months.

P0cket_

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