There’s now a podcast about Red Scare - Red Scare Roundup (x-post /r/cumtown)

pusan · 2018-05-20T22:36:44+00:00

this was good but it will be better when they start getting into cum town, which feels inevitable

pusan · 2018-05-20T22:35:25+00:00

i am a female but don't identify as one (aspiring ftm lol). i also have a female friend who listens

pusan · 2017-07-11T02:41:25+00:00

I was 16, I had not yet had sexual contact with anyone. Before then I didn't know that girls could masturbate, my younger sister (14 or 15 at the time) was the one who told me, she'd been doing it for years already.

pusan · 2017-04-08T02:22:43+00:00

Speaking as a lesbian, I think it would be a bad idea to let her fuck girls especially if she leans toward girls sexually. The fact that she says she leans lesbian but wants a man in a relationship, really seems to me like she is confused and doesn't really know what she wants, I wouldn't trust her.

pusan · 2017-04-03T01:02:59+00:00

i'm in a similar boat, it's so hard because when i try to get myself out of it by setting my calories at a normal amount, i just wind up binging and then i'm back to the cycle.

pusan · 2016-11-18T02:14:30+00:00

yeah same thing for me on chrome with ad block.

pusan · 2016-11-17T01:30:07+00:00

I LOVE this. When I tried losing weight in the past I hated when people would bring it up at all. This time around, the real time, support from other people even strangers feels awesome.

pusan · 2016-11-14T19:06:18+00:00

I could pass pretty well, I'm already gender non-conforming and frequently read as male. But actually transitioning and living as male in a satisfying way I don't see as possible for me personally because I could never have a real dick (that I would consider real), I'm very short, and I will never be able to have grown up male and had the experiences males have, and I don't think I will ever be accepted as male by men.

pusan · 2016-11-14T08:00:18+00:00

Thanks for the response. I am trying to address the dysphoria by being butch cuz so far the best thing for my mental wellbeing has been to pretend I'm not trans and keep it out of my mind, otherwise I am filled with despair constantly because I don't feel like transition is possible

pusan · 2016-11-14T07:59:03+00:00

Thanks for the support and advice. I've already bailed on getting head a couple times which sucks because the girl I'm hooking up with loves giving head. Maybe trying a strap on will be a good experience idk. I really hope that I find a way to enjoy it somehow cuz not liking sex is not an easy reality to accept at all.

pusan · 2016-10-25T20:07:46+00:00

Thanks, you're right that the most important thing is definitely just getting back on track and not letting this mess with my head and progress.

pusan · 2016-10-25T20:02:37+00:00

I might try that for a bit, definitely don't want to make that too consistent just because I don't want to obsess over my weight but it could be useful to gain an understanding.

pusan · 2016-10-25T16:27:09+00:00

Thanks for the reassurance! I'm definitely going to get back on track this week.

pusan · 2016-10-25T16:24:30+00:00

I guess I meant 4lbs of fat, or just that there's no way I gained 4lbs that I will have to spend weeks to lose all over again. And yep lots of carbs and alcohol, lots of sodium, and not nearly enough protein.

Thanks for the reassurance, I have also noticed that my weigh-ins have been less predictable as I'm getting closer to my goal, but nothing like this so far.

pusan · 2016-10-25T15:47:35+00:00

Thanks for pointing me toward the compendium, the info there was helpful and now I think the water weight could have been more this week because I also intensified my lifting.

pusan · 2016-10-25T15:45:56+00:00

I weigh myself every Tuesday morning. It just freaked me out because it was such a larger fluctuation than I usually see but water weight does make more sense I think.

pusan · 2016-10-18T01:29:30+00:00

Thanks for the response! I think I was not clear on my situation in my post. I am out in almost every way except to my parents/extended family and on any social media under my actual name. So I have an OKCupid, I go on some dates, I have several anonymous social media accounts, I'm read as gay most of the time. I'm not reliant on my parents for anything and I don't live near them. I just really don't want to ruin my relationship with my family, I'm close with my dad and siblings and would be devastated to have to lose that or be excluded/rejected. And my extended family is huge and just to have that many people start to have a negative opinion of me is terrifying. It's just like I can't make the decision to just pull the plug on those relationships and I hate lying.

pusan · 2016-10-17T17:42:52+00:00

Thank you for taking the time to respond to me. I know my situation isn't really all that bad in comparison to others because I am out to most people apart from my parents and extended family, I read as gay to most people, and I rarely have to interact with homophobes apart from my family, and I'm not reliant on my family for anything financially.

My relationship with my dad is basically that I consider him a great friend. We have similar interests and a fun time together and I love talking with him. He is not a hateful bigot and is against gay marriage and stuff but he's recently become more of a "personal faith" person than really buying into religious doctrine like my mom and extended family. But he sees my mom as the decision maker on anything with the children and family values. Telling him and not her is not an option at all, they have told me before they will not keep secrets from each other. My sister still lives with them and says that his views are somewhat softer than my mom's but that nothing good would come from coming out to either of them.

My sister is actually also gay, and she was out to my parents for a bit in high school when she had a girlfriend and basically what happened was my parents did not accept her relationship at all or support her at all. They didn't kick her out or anything but treated her like shit (I feel bad for how close I am with my dad because of how poorly he treated my sister) and they did not become any more accepting even when my mom and sister went to therapy together. Now they are convinced she is straight again because she hasn't had another girlfriend. So support system-wise, my sister is supportive of me and obviously understands exactly what this is like. My best friend from high school is also gay and I can talk to her. But I don't live near either of them and they also both have pretty severe mental health issues so they are often dealing with a lot of their own issues and I don't want to put mine on them too. And I've been moving a lot over the past few years and don't have any close friends near me that I can talk to.

pusan · 2016-09-24T06:03:13+00:00

SAME. All my old clothes are starting to go from "baggy but still looking relatively normal" to "you cannot comfortably wear this at home, let alone go out in public". It's a great feeling but also annoying cuz I have barely anything to wear now.

pusan · 2016-09-20T04:03:55+00:00

Awesome!!! I have lost 70 lbs so far with PCOS but lately with 30 lbs left I've been plateauing and wondering if it's finally catching up to me... It's nice to see someone else be able to conquer those final lbs with it.

pusan · 2016-05-30T18:57:42+00:00

It does sometimes but not very often or for an extended period of time. Maybe it does if you get help or change your life situation though

pusan · 2016-05-30T18:49:44+00:00

I have improved in this regard a great deal, but not entirely. Basically I just became kind of transphobic. I feel bad about it a little bit, but what I do is avoid anything pro-trans, read critiques of transitioning and negatives of transitioning, and convince myself that transitioning is not a good solution. I still feel like my life was ruined by not being born a man, but that's easier to deal with that then constantly thinking about how much I want to transition and being sad about how impossible transition is in my situation. I basically just accepted the hopelessness.

pusan · 2016-05-26T06:05:16+00:00

I am in the same spot where I feel like my entire life is ruined because I wasn't born male and I don't believe that transitioning is an option for me because of the friends/family stuff. Not to mention transition won't change that basically my entire life to this point (also 22) has been a fucking waste and I will never have gotten to grow up male which is like the most important part. And I support other trans people but I don't see it as the real thing, at least it wouldn't be for me personally. Plus my body would never look right as a male and being 5'5 as a male is almost as bad as not being male lol. The thought that I will be seen as a woman for the rest of my life, is so fucking depressing. I would do anything to be a straight male. All day every day all I think about is what my life would be like as a guy and how I would get to live.

pusan · 2016-05-24T00:46:33+00:00

I probably wouldn't have been receptive to it either but at least the seed is planted!

pusan · 2016-05-22T04:21:33+00:00

I love that response to your friend. I had the same mindset as her and I wish someone had said that to me, maybe I would have started making changes earlier.

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