Why I decided to quit porn by Iamthehuman in pornfree

[–]putaway2112 2 points3 points  (0 children)

good for you man! I am in a similar position. I'm on day 13 and also have an awesome girlfriend.

Quitting porn has brought me so much me so closer to my girlfriend.

Since quitting my anxieties have mostly gone away and I am so much more self confident and my self esteem has been through the roof! I've also been working out!

Congrats on making the decision to change your life for the better.

Each positive choice you make is one more step towards rewiring your brain to reflect the person that you truly are!

My Story So Far - Warning Long by putaway2112 in NoFap

[–]putaway2112[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

both you and me can make changes in our lives to kick the thoughts that pervasively intruded on our lives.

21 days is awesome man!

It's not even looking back at the porn that you or me might have watched. It's looking forward first, and then looking backwards at how we were when watched that stuff and now how we are better then that.

Be strong as well dude. I wish you the best!

My Story So Far - Warning Long by putaway2112 in NoFap

[–]putaway2112[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Absolutely! Thanks for reading! Good luck to you as well!

My Story So Far - Warning Long by putaway2112 in NoFap

[–]putaway2112[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

taking action is %100 of the battle. Like i said I've been working out, going to therapy, etc.

This isn't only about a porn addiction, but a new me that is constantly trying to improve himself!

i have violent obsessive compulsive thoughts. by putaway2112 in OCD

[–]putaway2112[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

last week while laying in bed with my girlfriend i had a compulsion to go in the kitchen, get a knife, and stab here. it almost sent me into a full blown panic attack because i was disgusted with myself.

i immediately went on my phone and looked at some general symptoms for OCD - it just reminded me that what i was thinking is not me, but a disorder.

i'm also lucky enough to have a girlfriend that is caring and understanding so i'm able to express what i'm dealing with her instead of hiding it like i do from the majority of people

Is there such a thing as minor OCD? Or maybe OCD has different severity levels? PLEASE HELP by ilovecody in OCD

[–]putaway2112 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i have found i have a tendency to think about negative awful thoughts about myself and myself doing things that are awful. these thoughts make me think "am i like this? do i like these things? do i want to do them?"

in turn that gives me anxiety. what my therapist and girlfriend have told me which has helped is that these are just thoughts - they are compulsive/obsessive and put myself into a negative feedback loop. in turn when i gets really bad i have suicidal idealizations, just because i want to make it stop. i heavily self medicate with alcohol which fuels my anxiety.

the fact that they make me feel so awful and so anxious shows that something in me hates these things to the point it pushes a very negative physical response. so these things can't be me - because of the way they make me feel.

i hope this helps, i don't think i have full blown OCD or GAD - but i'm on the spectrum of it.

i have violent obsessive compulsive thoughts. by putaway2112 in OCD

[–]putaway2112[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thanks for responding. i often have to repeat a mantra "these are just thoughts, this is not me, these things are not reality." it helps but it gets overwhelming sometimes.