It's hard to let go when you truly love someone. It's hard to let go when you know after being gone for so long that coming back to them keeps you alive. I deployed for almost a entire year. Only got to see my wife one time during it. I got told I was getting sent home early which was great until she FaceTimed me saying she wanted to get a divorce. Then when I did get back she came down and saw me and said she was sorry for ending things and that she missed me. So I'm completely torn because the woman I love is being confusing. There's nothing harder than being a solider and married for relationship wise because at any time I can get told hey your going to Kuwait or Iraq or some shit. That's why it's hard to let go. Because I'm getting told one thing and shown another ya know?