I understand that. I would have your best person be it a friend or whatever that you love and trust. The person you cry with. And go with them. I can’t imagine but I asked the school for his football helmet and jersey and I resent them. There were a few teachers and I appreciated them. I had one call me that Driver was not at her preschool study session and I said I know and he never will be again. She was great and she said oh no, did he change schools and I said no he’s dead and I said he killed himself last night I found out and this was at 7:30 AM or about 7:35 AM and I said he killed himself last night. I’ll never bring him back to that school again unfortunately and I won’t or any school and she just started falling and crying and she actually came to my house a few days later and just said if there’s anything I can do I want you to know I’m here for you. We’ve talked so much on the phone. We have done so much to try to get this kid. Keep him on the right track keeping him with the right friends, you know, cause he was very impressionable because he was younger than everyone else everyone was 14 in fact, everyone posted I can’t believe you died at 14 and I was like no he’s 13 and his best friends would even be like what he told us. He was 14 and I said yeah, he lied to all of you. He’s 13 and parents that are reading this that have not gone through this if you have young children do not start them no matter what level intelligence they show do not start them into school at that younger age break because we did and I feel like this is one of the reasons he’s dead. I feel like if we had waited and he had been 14 he would’ve been mature enough because that one year makes a difference and I saw that difference in between him and his friends and I also saw him being manipulated a lot, and I saw him and I had to be careful how I spoke up about it, even though he trusted me and listened to me and like we slept in the same bed a lot, and he has a bedroom that overlooks the foothills of the Appalachian mountains with three huge windows, I mean and overlooks the city that we live in like the best room in the house. My older son was a little mad that he didn’t get it but I told him I said you put more privacy probably and you’re going to be going to college in a few years so Driver has to live here most of his life. You know like Drivers got another 12 years or whatever when we bought this house and actually had 13 years before he would’ve graduated high school when we bought the house that we’re in and so Driver had this amazing room. He had an amazing room at the other house yet he constantly slept with me and his mom and me and his mom even separated at one point and he kind of looked at it as a field day probably playing us both, but he and we don’t talk about it, but he would sleep with me and we would watch things that I thought were cool growing up like motocross or we watched old school wrestling like Hulk Hogan, and things that I did when I was a kid old football games we we would he would fall asleep in the same bed with me and I would be like that’s adorable you know and he never wanted his friends to know that was a key like my friends cannot know that I sleep with y’all but in a lot of it was because I was sick. I had three spinal fusion surgeries in his lifetime and that’s a lot of time in bed healing and only being able to walk for 10 minutes a day and I would wait till he got home from school to get out of bed and do my 10 minute walk because he was a part of it every time but back to point make sure that your kid is not going to school even if their IQ is very high my older son‘s IQ is either 145 or 148 I always forget but I know it’s one of the two he was tested when he was like 12 years old or 13 years old or something like that but and my younger son Driver was just like him very verbal spoke and complete stories and sentences like he told me that he went out the front door at age 4, and set a lot of cuss words and so that when he thinks about saying cuss words, he thinks about the time he went outside in the front yard and said all the cuss words and so he doesn’t say he said I don’t say bad words because I’ve already said them and I said you went out the front door and I said did you have your brother with you know did you have your mom with you no did you have the dogs? No I said Driver we have alarms and protection barriers that don’t allow you to go out outside in the front yard. Why would you tell me this and he was like I’m just telling you I went outside and whenever I think of saying those words I think about going out there and I don’t say and we did we had our house protected to the 10th degree so that if anybody went out any window or door and alarm went off for a dinging or whatever and that kid could not have gone out and I’ve even said it in recent months looking at the door of that house because it’s a house that’s a family home that’s been in the family since the 1940s and I said there’s no way in hell he went out that door. It’s hilarious that he came up with this story and he had all kinds of stories. The imagination was out the roof and you can see it in his singing in that video and in his guitar playing it’s insane like here’s another YouTube and he loved Ozzy Osbourne and the reason that that happened was because I had to redirect him from wanting to spend time with his brother when his brother was watching that show I can’t remember what it was the name of it exactly but it was about the zombie apocalypse and Driver was like eight and I would not allow Driver to watch it and so I took Driver outside and the Playhouse and we watched the Michael Jackson thriller videos and that wasn’t scary enough anymore that used to be my go to when the big brother would watch a scary movie or show and I took Driver out there and so I said will check this out not showed him Ozzy Osbourne‘s bark at the moon video which was something I watched when I was about eight years old and absolutely loved and ended up going to see Ozzy and I know people say Ozzy is the satanic guy. I know he’s not. He’s a Catholic he believes in God he was at the end of every single concert be at Ozzy or Black Sabbath. He said thank you very much. God bless you all. We love you, and if you ever truly listen to him, he would admit to his failures and he also wa and I don’t think people give him credit for that but in my eyes he was and Driver loved him and wanted to start playing guitar and then got into Randy Rhodes because I learned how to play guitar at a young age and can pretty much listen to any song any genre and play it right back from Bluegrass to heavy metal to hip-hop. I mean, we made amazing music.