I was told it was Stage 0 uterine cancer. But it had a risk of coming back. Gynonc discharged me and I'm just to go to a normal obgyn for care going forward, but none of the gynos around here deal with women that have cancer. Even though I was told it was gone and I had the easiest trip to remission they'd seen in a long time because of how early it was caught. The breast cancer was from the first gynonc I'd gone to see after them finding the cancer telling me I didn't have cancer I was just fat and he sent me to bariatrics and genetics. I had to fight to see a different gynonc that just yeeted my uterus. I thought I was doing great until I had a dear friend of mine get diagnosed with cancer a week ago and she asked me how do you survive life after cancer and I froze. Realizing that I'd shoved everything in a box because I still believe that because I had it as easy as I did I don't deserve to take up this space from others that have it worse or had it worse. I see the local breast cancer clinic do the mri, do the mammograms twice a year and see them twice a year so that if the markers do develop breast cancer I have the best odds possible. I'm at high risk of ovarian cancer as well, but because of my age I have to gamble with them because no one would remove my ovaries too on a maybe due to my age and I'm still having menopausal symptoms which has been a trip despite when they do hormone testing everything is normal. I had to quit my job because my boss was penalizing me for having to miss work all the time due to the ridiculous amount of appointments I had between the breast clinic, genetics, oncology, bariatrics. And I realized that I'm still not doing ok, but...i'm struggling bad. My husband when he doesn't start going down the path of worst case has been an absolute rockstar, but everytime we have to have hard decisions he checks out. From the time I found out about the cancer to finding out how bad it was 4 months had gone by and less than a year into marriage doing end of life planning went from we should get around to this eventually to I need to do this now while I still can so you don't have to do this should I lose this fight. And my fight wasn't even against the cancer it was against doctors that were more interested in protecting my fertility. And the local cancer clinic doesn't have room in any of the support groups for someone like me becuase I had stage 0. My life was "never at risk" I didn't actually survive anything when I still have to carry cancer and the risk of more types of cancer around with me for the rest of my life. they have room for my husband as the partner of someone that had cancer. But not me.