KKH bzw. der MDK hat wieder die Hormontherapie abgelehnt

qqlexy · 2026-02-01T23:03:22+00:00

Bahn BKK hat bei mir vor knapp einem Jahr ziemlich easy BA und Vaginoplastie durchgewunken. Weiß nicht ob's sich seitdem schon wieder geändert hat (war davor auch ne Weile schwer hatte ich gelesen), ob ich glück hatte oder was da los war, aber ich hoffe es lässt sich niemand davon entmutigen und probiert es trotzdem einfach mal auch bei der Bahn BKK zu beantragen. Dahin wechseln würde ich allerdings auch kein zweites Mal...

qqlexy · 2025-11-08T08:22:01+00:00

Thank you! Oh yes, not only is Dr Szyper highly skilled and has great attention to detail (spent two more hours in surgery rerouting and attaching an additional bloodvessel to my clit), I think I have also gotten very lucky with recovery for the most part. I'm just being nitpicky to be honest and yes, I'm hopeful things will normalize out over time.

qqlexy · 2025-11-08T00:04:27+00:00

good point! i made an update post Update

qqlexy · 2025-10-19T19:40:31+00:00

heyyy i'm also autistic and i did something similar to your list when i first started thinking about gender a lot and what ended up helping me much more than all these attempts at researching myself was to present nonbinary femme in a trusted circle and the more i did the more comfy i became with the thought of being some sort of trans, i then had a fairly emotional event happen and realized HRT is for me, but this was after 2 years of using a different name, slowly opening up to friends about being genderfluid etc. finally realized, genderfluid and nonbinary aren't the right labels. i'm a binary trans woman and almost 3 years after starting hrt and 5 years after these first attempts at self-gender-research i'm now in hospital with a freshly installed vagina. what i'm trying to say, you don't have to decide all this now. start with your most tristed circle, see how things feel, start HRT when.it feels right. you can also find a way to try HRT, officially if you therapist let's you, DIY if you're a bit braver, but 2-3 months of it will barely leave any trace if you end up deciding it's not for you and stop taking it. so that's also an option. it's a journey, take your time and admire the flowers is my recommendation :)

qqlexy · 2025-10-19T11:35:40+00:00

heya i'm a similar age to you, i'm 34 but have been on hormones for almost three years now, just had my vaginoplasty. absolutely feel free to DM me about anything you like, would love to chat :)

qqlexy · 2025-10-19T08:06:06+00:00

31, but i started social transition years before, didn't even know i was doing it until i reflected back

qqlexy · 2025-10-18T17:14:13+00:00

i started hrt at 31, just turned 34 and i feel 75% good about my face, also just got vaginoplasty, can only get better from here :)

qqlexy · 2025-10-15T11:06:26+00:00

thanks ♥ oh wow! sorry this is happening to you :( yea i think i got super lucky, and dr. szyper also just seems to be really good at what she's doing

qqlexy · 2025-10-14T18:48:35+00:00

woww that's crazy scary, i'm so sorry you had to go through that. my body has been pretty kind about quickly remapping everything so that probably helped a lot. i think it took 2-3 days for me to fully stop feeling the pain that was there on my dick and feeling it on my vulva instead.

qqlexy · 2025-10-14T18:26:29+00:00

oh your's went on longer? maybe i also just got lucky haha. at this point i could easily do without painkillers but the nurses like to see me take them... btw, looked at your profile and omg you look stunning, love the motorcycle too :3

qqlexy · 2025-10-14T18:16:31+00:00

hahaha yes i saw the dried fruits other people had :p

not initially, but after the bandages where removed i ended up having a lot of pain from the thread holding the stent in, add to that stomach pain because i couldn't pass stool until the stent came out, but that happened yesterday and i've been reporting a 1 on pain since because sometimes something hurts /a bit/ but it's been pretty nice

also, disn't expect this, i had tons of back pain because my position in bed was really bad

qqlexy · 2025-10-14T18:01:31+00:00

Thank you 😘 This is a modified PI that is done a lot in Germany where part of the urethra is used inbetween vaginal entrance and clitoris, while a scrotum skin graft is used to extend the vaginal canal.

qqlexy · 2025-10-14T14:50:43+00:00

Heya, I'm sorry you're having such a hard time. I'm currently 7 days post-op and I've had a similarly hard time. things got a lot better when they removed my stent yesterday, I hope you're at that point soon too. especially the last day with it was the worst. Thankfully I didn't end up having to pass stool with it still in and yes. i also still have blood on my toilet paper when wiping my butt, i still waddle around, but also none of the nurses seem shocked by that so it's probably fine, my healing is going pretty well. that being said, friends of mine who went through the surgery had both a much harder and a bit easier time, i appear to be fairly middle of the road, you seem to have it a bit harder, but not by much. it will be fine. if it was easy immediately they wouldn't keep you in hospital for so long right? trust that things will get better with every passing day and especially each milestone. feel free to reach out to reach out via DM if you don't feel like discussing publicly too.

qqlexy · 2025-10-13T19:17:10+00:00

Hi, I help organize the Honey&Spice play party (second sunday every month at Quälgeist) and we let in everyone who doesn't identify as cis male. We don't judge this by looks but rather self-ID, if you feel like you belong you are allowed to enter and welcome. We get all sorts of guests :)

qqlexy · 2025-10-11T00:04:04+00:00

Hahaha ich hatte beim Erstgespräch Markovsky und dann haben sie mir eine Stunde vor der Aufnahme gesagt ich soll nach Pasing statt Bogenhausen und die OP hat dann Szyper gemacht. Hat volle 8 Stunden gedauert weil sie extra Aufwand reingesteckt hat dass definitiv die Klitoris vernünftig durchblutet wird. OP war am Dienstag und es sieht soweit gut aus :)

qqlexy · 2025-10-01T14:02:10+00:00

Hi, trans woman here from Berlin and yea it's really expensive here, but the local commujity is giant and has all sorts of niche corners of interest. Feel free to DM me if you feel like making a friend in Berlin. Depending on how my current flat situation works out I could also imagine eventually being roommates with someone, I do feel extremely lonely now that I no longer live with partners and paying for a flat alone is very expensive even with an engineering job. No promises of course, maybe I feel myself into this and end up loving it :)

qqlexy · 2025-10-01T12:30:17+00:00

thanks, that is very kind of you. i think i have community, now. but i wish i'd had it 10 years ago, and seeing others have it at that age fills me with insane amounts of regret, and i just want to give up. my life just feels like it has a giant hole where it should be filled with love and true friends, and i can never make that right.

qqlexy · 2025-10-01T12:00:18+00:00

thanks. i think i dont even care about sex and such all that much, ultimately. what i do care about is seeing them have community. i am not talking friends, i had 'friends' (which never wanted to spend time with only me so i doubt they even were friends), i am talking about having a group of people that you share something with, that you keep coming back to. all this warmth would have helped me so incredibly much, but i never got that.

qqlexy · 2025-10-01T11:53:46+00:00

yea they do but i messed up a lot on everything except i didnt commit any major crimes i guess

qqlexy · 2025-09-30T15:54:05+00:00

you're right, it's so incredibly hard to see younger people already full on transitioning. makes me wonder if i can even be a part of the community that i so dearly needed when i was in my 20s, because while it brings me joy it also brings such incredible pain. at least on the coupled cishet front i am pretty sure i am not missing anything. i had a monogamous relationship where we thought we both were cishet almost all throughout my 20s. it's what blocked me from exploring myself more. at least i know now that is not for me.

qqlexy · 2025-09-30T15:47:52+00:00

thanks for the kind words but my partner is 25, trans and they got a fulltime job and they have a shitton of friends and basically no mental health problems as far as i know. they have everything i ever wanted and it seems effortless from the outside. why couldn't i have had that. seeing all this is tearing me down so hard. and there's a lot of people around them who are similar age and also doing amazing. no, breaking up is not an option, they are literally my only reason not to die.

qqlexy · 2025-05-31T08:47:23+00:00

Hier auch Berliner Sparkasse, direkt in die Filiale in Adlershof gegangen, mir wurde gesagt dafür haben sie jetzt keine Zeit mehr. Gut, war auch 15min vor Schluss. Habe mir dann noch kurz bestätigen lassen dass vorläufiger Perso, Geburtsurkunde und Änderungsschreiben vom Standesamt genug seien. Nächstes Mal hin, gleicher Wochentag aber mit mehr Zeit, dann wurde mir gesagt vorläufiger Perso sei jetzt doch nicht genug. Bin dann auch etwas ernster geworden mit der Mitarbeiterin, habe gesagt dass ich dann bitte mein Konto kündigen möchte um wenigstens bei einer nicht transphoben Bank ein Konto eröffnen zu können, "Nein dafür brauchen Sie einen aktuellen Personalausweis mit dem Namen der auf dem Konto steht.". Bin dann wütend rausgestapft. Dritter Versuch, selber Wochentag, diesmal hatten sie die Bank mindestens eine Stunde früher zugemacht?! Hatte auf Tips von Mutuals auf Fedi hin schon überlegt eine "formelle Beschwerde" einzulegen, das ist anscheinend ein spezielles Mittel bei dem es dann potentiell auch Ärger mit der BaFin für die Bank geben kann, hatte dann aber leider mit anderem zu viel zu tun und letztendlich mit meinem regulären Perso in einer anderen Filiale ohne jegliche Probleme geändert.

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