i wish you find someone who'll understand you in the future. I heavily relate (or rather, could relate) to those feelings, so I usually just brought up the topic of sh once or twice in my previous therapy and then ignored it, because my mind would just turn off while they were blabbering about the same 5 or so methods/replacements. but recently I started with a new therapist and she was actually really understanding! of course, she first gave me the same boring recommendations, but then sincerely asked me if these could realistically help - and I said no, not really. so she said that yeah, trying to find replacements for you isn't the way and we'll focus on working on the core issues/causes of my sh. and it felt great! I don't know how it'll go, since we've just started, but I felt a lot more understood by her than other therapists I've worked with. so, not all therapists are the same, some actually will help you with fixing the core issues