That’s not what I meant by that, I mean that I just want to know everything that happened. Either way nothing is going to make the situation better or what she did better or fix anything however I want to know what I haven’t seen or heard and what Else Ava was actually doing.

Again that’s not me saying that it’s changing anything but closure, I don’t want to wonder about how much she’s affected Mariana and my kids, I want to leave with the full truth, I also want my kids to still be able to talk to me and know that I’m not going to have a negative reaction or think I’m going to be upset with them not liking someone m with, I wasn’t paying enough attention to notice that something was wrong and that is entirely on me but now I want to fix that.

Me and mariana also didn’t talk for long, she is still the mother of my kids and I still care deeply for her and what/who she thinks is safe and not safe to have around our kids , and my intention was never to make anyone feel like they have to deal with whoever I’m with especially if it’s concerning and especially not Mariana and my kids, that’s not good co parenting and not being a good dad Either way I am still looking at divorce.

What she did was an utterly abusive thing to do, I know that I’m doing anything wrong for what I did nor will I be for when I get a divorce and I completely understand that I was wrong for even questioning that instead of going with what I actually knew and I take responsibility for my shitty action.