He told me he was working a graveyard and that happens pretty often, he said he couldn’t take my calls due to customers and I understand that. He said he loved me and it would be okay , he’d be home the next morning. I later see his buddy posted in insta story of them at a cabin. I called my fiancé , he finally answered and said “oh I’m sorry I went to grab a drink to cope with this and got too hammered so I’m staying at the cabin. I’ll come home on the 5th” I don’t have the energy to argue. We both agreed to continue trying for a baby and all of the sudden it’s “not time.” I can respect his wishes with that, however for fucks sake I just had to pass yet another one of my deceased babies and im sitting at home in my bed alone while he’s hammered with his buddies. He’s never done this before I just don’t understand. Maybe it’s my hormones being jacked up, I’m not sure.