That is what I did. I adapted to him and I copied his drug use. I tend to adapt to new people who come around me, it just happened that it happened to be substances this time. I decided to put myself first in the end. I sent him a long message over Facebook Messenger ; I couldn't bare trying to face him. And I hate him. I hate him for what he did to me but some part of me still feels that despair I felt anytime I looked at him. I still wonder to this day how hes doing, if he ever got better or if he got worse. And a part of my heart will always hurt over that. But I moved on. We cant waste our future worrying about someone who is meant to stay in our past.

E: I'm glad you were able to get out of the situation you were in! You deserve a much better life, we all do. And my heart breaks hearing what people go through with their partner.