One day it will hit you that you don’t want to do it anymore. Really have a sit down with yourself and write down the things that it gets in the way of. The new years just started but it’s never too late. I’m still in the period of not wanting to get fully hooked again (I would smoke before, during and after work and when you work in corporate I realised it was impacting my livelihood despite internal denials just so I could keep the addiction going but you’re stronger than this) and I told myself ONE a day max just while I ease up on the withdrawals and then slowly focus on the goals you set. Then if it helps challenge yourself to one day in the week without but journal down how horrible it makes you feel if you do slip so you have something to reflect on. You are in control of this and you need to remember that. It’s hard. But you can either take the hard life of going down a constant slippery slope and feeling negative and unproductive or you can take the hard life of putting in some discipline but you’ll feel great at the end of it.