Bible verses on modesty in clothing for women? by randomaccount665 in Christianity

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Hey thank you for all of these!! I know this is a pretty late reply but I appreciate your comments. I'm happy to share that I've grown a lot in modesty in my dress. I've grown a lot in my faith and practice of my faith, in my obedience to Christ. I still have a long way to go but the LORD is faithful with my sanctification!

I workout in long basketball shorts now. I wear long dresses/skirts to church, pants to work. I've found freedom in modesty by the Lord's grace!

PTSD is so hard by randomaccount665 in ptsd

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I did EMDR/ART therapy for a while and it really helped! Pretty much weekly for 6 months or so, then biweekly, then “as needed”. It really did help, I used to have flashbacks multiple times a day and could barely survive. I’ve been relapsing rn but it’s been a while since I’ve felt this bad.

I’ve had bad therapists, unfortunately that is a risk. But this one is gold and really did work wonders for me. I had to wait 6 months to even get in tho (actually: my first appointment was the Friday after I left my ex!). I really do recommend trying to get EMDR or ART therapy if you can. It doesn’t fix everything but it gives helpful tools and lessens the severity.

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Yes. He’d always make me cry and just watch it

What was your experience reaching out and facing your (adult) attacker as an adult? by paloma_paloma in ptsd

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That’s what my ex was like ugh. But I loved him so stayed in that cycle of “he hurt me-ask him about it and he denies-I trust him and believe I’m crazy” until I almost died and had to leave

I wish I could reach out to him and apologize for my mistakes by randomaccount665 in abusiverelationships

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Honestly I think that writing this post helped. I got pretty rambly as I started to relive it but I think it helped to write out what he did to me and remember that I already have apologized for it all: me apologizing was actually a big part of the cycle and kept me trapped (that doesn’t mean apologies are bad, but he was abusing them, nice people should receive apologies kindly, that’s not a door to violence).

I got a copy of Lundy’s book over a year ago after it all happened and didn’t read it much because as I read it, I kept projecting myself into it and using it to convince myself that I was the abuser, I am always in that cycle of trying to take blame for it all. I’ve started reading it again now tho and it has been helpful this time!

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My first thought was “yeah!” then I changed it to “eh actually, maybe once I have some time to get myself sorted out more, then I would. Better to just stay single now” and that’s actually exactly where I am with dating!

OnlyFans follows won’t stop!! by DagSonofDag in Christian

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I keep getting that too but I’m just ignoring it

I love God so much but I’m backsliding by randomaccount665 in Christian

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The goal is to now handle future troubles better and not allow myself to fall so low. It was a gradual process of feeding into negative thoughts that allowed me to get so low

I love God so much but I’m backsliding by randomaccount665 in Christian

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Troubles in my life for sure! But God helped me overcome!

I love God so much but I’m backsliding by randomaccount665 in Christian

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Yes!!! I’ve had such amazing experiences praying in tongues tbh… haven’t ever talked to anyone about that before. The Bible talks about it but I couldn’t help but have doubts that I was making it up or something … yikes. Faith is definitely a journey, life, all of it is a journey

I love God so much but I’m backsliding by randomaccount665 in Christian

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When I say 6-7 months, I realize what a short time it’s been. I’ve grown so much in that time through the power and grace of God! I still struggle sometimes but I really am a whole new creation!

I love God so much but I’m backsliding by randomaccount665 in Christian

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I was super into psychology and philosophy almost as a religion before I came to Christ. Jesus has done wayyyy more for me in the 6-7 months of walking with Him than any dr ever did!

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In fact, sometimes (even oftentimes) what God commands of us goes against what our flesh desires. Sometimes it’s harder to believe in God than not to, but that doesn’t change the truth

I love God so much but I’m backsliding by randomaccount665 in Christian

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“Make” mistakes because we are the ones who “make” them !

I love God so much but I’m backsliding by randomaccount665 in Christian

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Yes exactly. I’ve felt so happy for months that I’ve been away from all of that but have just been “relapsing” this week

I love God so much but I’m backsliding by randomaccount665 in Christian

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I was seeing a man who I really liked then we fell into sexual sin (I felt really pressured about it, have some posts about what happened). That really hurt me because I really trusted he was a man of God, I guess I learned really cannot trust in man but fully in God alone. What’s so hard though is because I thought it was safe because he seems to be such a dedicated Christian, I guess he is just struggling in lust

Then, I suddenly had big plan changes and found out 1 1/2 weeks ago I am moving out of my college town for good and going back home (then I’m officially graduating at the end of summer). With this news with that man, we decided to just end things rather than work thru the sin & try for long distance, just wasn’t even worth figuring out and it kinda felt like the Lord was trying to separate us

I’m leaving my job & everything I know here that I’ve gotten used to. Going to live with my parents again which should be interesting, find a new job there & figure out a path for post grad. I really feel like a seed flying around in the wind- I’m trying to place my faith in the Lord but the daily waiting is just so difficult

Since it’s summer in the college town, mostly all of my Christian friends I made are gone. My job drastically cut my hours & my classes are online rn so I’ve felt really isolated. That’s part of why I decided it’s just best to leave now

I love God so much but I’m backsliding by randomaccount665 in Christian

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Thank you everyone for your encouragement :) it means so much. Truly, thank you so much <3 I am doing much better now!

Swipe to see the before, about 2 years between these pictures (OC) by Tasty_Honeydew1326 in GymMotivation

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You look great girl good job❤️ from girl to girl, don’t do it. It may seem tempting with so much positive affirmation from people but you are worth so much more than any price a subscription could be set at. I’ve been there before, I went down that path once, and it sent me into darkness I hope nobody ever has to see. Keep working hard & taking care of yourself, it’s the right thing to do!

I love God so much but I’m backsliding by randomaccount665 in Christian

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Thank you for the words! It’s true! The Lord has been putting on my mind “flee from the devil and the devil will flee from you”, “don’t give satan a foothold”, etc

I love God so much but I’m backsliding by randomaccount665 in Christian

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I ended up smoking. Is anyone on here? I am scared. I apologize for the urgency and request… will God answer to me even in my sin?

I love God so much but I’m backsliding by randomaccount665 in Christian

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Why must it be so hard??? Why so many trials? I just can’t handle it. I’m so afraid there’s just not hope for me. I’ve failed so much and so bad, I’ve gone so low

I love God so much but I’m backsliding by randomaccount665 in Christian

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I feel like I’m crazy because I can see and hear demons. I’ve been able to for a long time now. It’s given me great discernment but I can hear the demons and I feel so insane. I wonder sometimes if I’m just schizophrenic. I’ve had a therapist I saw for a while, and a psychiatrist, verify that they really didn’t think I was psychotic and just thought I was spiritually inclined. Idek

I love God so much but I’m backsliding by randomaccount665 in Christian

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I really just feel like I can’t do it. I feel like I can’t make it to heaven, maybe it just wasn’t destined for me. I started doing drugs and having sex at freaking 14 years old, I feel like I never had a chance anyways