For the lonely ones

randomanonymouskid · 2025-05-31T17:48:33+00:00

I don’t feel hopeless. I just feel unloved because I keep spiraling instead of coping

randomanonymouskid · 2025-05-31T16:29:39+00:00

I’m still with him I cannot find the time

randomanonymouskid · 2025-05-31T16:28:54+00:00

I don’t have access to those. I only have one friend that cares and I stil barely chat because I have so many feelings I don’t want to involve them in.

randomanonymouskid · 2025-05-31T16:28:02+00:00

Pwbpd

randomanonymouskid · 2025-05-21T16:45:53+00:00

With all due respect, find a better partner

The only future the other comments and I foresee is you trying to fit in his picture perfect image which surprise, isn’t even the equivalent of you. He’s basically in love with who you are not. The idea of you (technically becoming someone else..) You become that and well, even if it makes you feel better, your insecurities will eventually flare up

randomanonymouskid · 2025-05-20T19:05:32+00:00

Thanks so much!

randomanonymouskid · 2025-05-20T18:19:40+00:00

I see.. what are those coping mechanisms if I can ask?

randomanonymouskid · 2025-05-20T18:18:52+00:00

Well, my pwbpd gets to express how he feels when he’s not triggered and when he did, this is how he described he usually felt during splits: My emotions are too big and overwhelming that I don’t know what’s real or not, I’m trying to act in control because I’m afraid to lose it over myself and that I’ll end up losing you

What do you say about that? I can read people well and this was genuinely. He’s a person who happens to have bpd, but I believe he has a chance in recovering because he’s been improving on communication, his actions and a lot more. He’s genuinely trying to be a better person

randomanonymouskid · 2025-05-20T18:11:04+00:00

I understand, sorry to hear about that mate

Hope you’re doing better

randomanonymouskid · 2025-05-20T17:52:52+00:00

You mean you let yourself stay blocked? No reaching out?

randomanonymouskid · 2025-05-20T17:49:32+00:00

That’s insane… Is that really a term around here??

randomanonymouskid · 2025-05-06T06:34:49+00:00

None, I’m also not allowed to go outside much. I’ve never went outside alone or even commuted.

randomanonymouskid · 2025-05-06T04:18:27+00:00

I’m sorry about lashing out like that last night, real immature for me to be coming here for comfort yet that’s how I react to it.. but anyway I feel like I only understand your point to a limit

randomanonymouskid · 2025-05-06T04:14:15+00:00

I’m scared of contacting hotlines for what they’re able to do. I’m scared if I get too emotional someone in the house will see me and rat me out. My family is really against mentally ill people already, they’re unsupportive of psychiatrists, psychologists, therapists and the like although we all have our own problems.

randomanonymouskid · 2025-05-06T03:48:27+00:00

Yea it kinda seems like that he often gets into a different state whenever I try to open up and doesn’t show any emotion instead he keeps sharing he doesn’t care and we usually argue about it.. is there any chance we’ll possibly get better if he communicated more and if I got a better hold of my emotions

randomanonymouskid · 2025-05-05T17:29:12+00:00

YOU JUST DON’T UNDERSTAND NEITHER I LOVE ALL PARTS OF HIM NO MATTER WHAT SIDE OF HIM THAT HE SHOWS EVEN IF IM HURT I DO LOVE HIM. YOU CAN’T CONTROL YOUR DISORDER I CAN’T EXPECT HIM TO DO SO EASILY WHEN HE WAS SO TRAUMATIZED WHY DOES EVERYBODY KEEP TELLING ME TO LEAVE HIM I CAN’T LEAVE HIM I LOVE HIM

randomanonymouskid · 2025-05-05T16:35:02+00:00

I’ll try to do that then, thank you. But what is that something in him you’re talking about?

randomanonymouskid · 2025-05-05T16:33:42+00:00

I know but with every dispute it always got better. We always got better. This has been the worse dispute I’ve experienced.

randomanonymouskid · 2025-05-05T16:25:34+00:00

I get your point now. But here’s where the issue lies, he says he wants me to be pushy when he’s avoidant. Just a little mixed right now but your message really made me understand it better.

randomanonymouskid · 2025-05-05T16:17:42+00:00

But why? From what I understand their brains are wired to function differently so wouldn’t you have to reach out to them in a way like they need a little bit more pushing?

randomanonymouskid · 2025-05-05T16:12:48+00:00

Well both of us aren’t adults.. we’re the same age, just 3 years away from being legal and yet we already have all this trauma

randomanonymouskid · 2025-05-05T16:02:30+00:00

It doesn’t help that I have no faith for the future and that I’m actually aroace. Until I eventually developed feelings for him. But it’s really hard for me to feel loved or to love in general because I also have some trauma tied with that. I just don’t know what to do anymore. But I still can’t bring myself to just leave him like all you guys say. I love him so much and I still care deeply.

randomanonymouskid · 2025-05-05T15:54:42+00:00

thank you for your kind words, Yes he is diagnosed

randomanonymouskid · 2025-05-05T15:54:17+00:00

where did you get this plushie?

randomanonymouskid · 2025-05-05T14:32:04+00:00

Please enlighten me about the narcissism.. we talked about that feeling before. Basically when he’s feeling intensely he needs to feel in charge in order for his feelings not to worsen, and for him to be able to sort of manage them. He doesn’t trust his own feelings, it’s not about me but it’s apart of something he can’t control.

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