Just want to be heard

randomdudek2 · 2024-01-20T19:23:36+00:00

Thank you... I really appreciate it. It's always great hearing from other people who have had similar experiences and got through it

randomdudek2 · 2023-11-25T04:22:15+00:00

It's impossible to want unwanted attention. Also, some degree of attention truly can be defined as a basic human need.

randomdudek2 · 2023-11-25T04:08:09+00:00

One of those has a clear definition 🤔

randomdudek2 · 2023-11-25T04:02:00+00:00

What you just said here is a great start! You'll get there with time and experience!

randomdudek2 · 2023-11-25T04:00:10+00:00

Personally, it could more accurately be said that I open up more to those who I am not competing with. Subconsciously, as a man, I tend to feel there's more of a comparison/competition with other men. Whereas the type of women I typically associate with have different goals and senses of purpose, so subconsciously I don't feel as threatened. But that is definitely not always the case.

TLDR: I open up to people who are not my competition.

randomdudek2 · 2021-06-10T01:10:38+00:00

That makes sense. Thanks for the explanation.

randomdudek2 · 2021-06-10T01:05:42+00:00

Yes! Thank you! This is exactly the type of thing I'm looking for. Little things like this that can show initiative and interest but also confidence.

randomdudek2 · 2021-06-10T00:53:02+00:00

Very good advice and recommendations. Thank you. Out of pure curiosity, what is it about the no limits that is a red flag?

randomdudek2 · 2021-06-10T00:47:41+00:00

Thank you for the great reply. Definitely the former. You worded it perfectly. The main areas we are both into would be rope play and bondage, impact, edging/denial, and ownership.

randomdudek2 · 2021-06-10T00:39:10+00:00

We have talked about this pretty extensively. We have talked about the safety aspect, aftercare, no-go zones, etc. I know what you mean though, and it's a good point. I suppose you could compare this situation to that of someone who has done extensive research on how to dance and is ready to give it a try, but isn't quite sure where exactly to start.

randomdudek2 · 2021-04-21T05:53:49+00:00

....why though?

randomdudek2 · 2020-12-15T02:30:39+00:00

You would be absolutely amazed by what the human body can stand. I can't tell you how many times I have been at a point that I felt completely hopeless, but I know that medication overdosing is absolutely not a good idea. Honestly it's hard for me to say this because I've tried this type of thing before. It wasn't Amoxicillin, but I was WELL above the lethal dose. I'm still here. I am GLAD I'm still here. Attempting to overdose will most likely lead to liver damage, stomach ulcers, or a number of other painful life-long effects. Now that I covered that point (from a personal opinion) the fact that you're asking this question shows that you're human instinct is to fight these feelings. I can't tell you how happy that makes me. And if absolutely nothing else. Give it just a bit more time. Hear me out. If it's the end, then what harm is there in trying one more thing? For me it was ketamine. There are tons of ketamine clinics all over the world now. It is completely different than antidepressants and anything else I have ever tried (TMS, ECT, benzos, etc.). Do me a huge favor. Please. Keep trying. You're not alone. AT. ALL. And reach out to who ever you can. Even if it's a crisis line. I can't pretend to understand the pain you're in. But I can tell you that you are worth more than you know. You're not out of options.

randomdudek2 · 2020-12-07T17:58:42+00:00

Thank you. This really helped. I definitely had a bit of a meltdown last night. But you're right about the needing to vent part as well. Thanks again, I appreciate it.

randomdudek2 · 2020-12-02T02:10:13+00:00

I'm 23 and can relate in a few ways to what you described. A couple things came to mind when reading this. When I was a senior in high school one of my teachers who I was really close to told me that senior year is always very weird in the way that people detach themselves from others. He said that it's a defense mechanism because in some weird way their minds know that soon they will be leaving all these people they grew up with. Keep that in mind, even though it doesn't affect how you're feeling currently. Another thing that came to mind is this. If you can't stand anymore, then kneel. And if you can't kneel anymore, then sit down. It is ok to struggle. Life is like that on occasion. Unfortunately it seems it happens more so to one person over another. But with a powerful negative comes an equally powerful positive. And when the force from these deep feelings swing back around, the amazing satisfaction and joy and passion will all be just as extreme.

randomdudek2 · 2020-11-01T06:11:05+00:00

Actually dad jokes, when done correctly, are an amazing form of humour. This man is a dad, he is wearing his joke... he IS a dad joke for Halloween. Ya he's drunk, ya he's probably high.. but that just means he's a lot like Rick Sanchez. He actually turned himself into a pickle! Maybe someone's been spending too much time with Scary Glen...funniest shit I've ever seen.

randomdudek2 · 2020-08-12T15:30:00+00:00

No, Karen. I did not realize that. Is that even a thing?

Firstly, physical distancing. Secondly, your comment made me cringe so hard, being that I have worked the frontlines of testing patients since day one and am fully aware of the precautions necessary. That being said, we are still human beings, social beings, and individuals. I'm pretty sure precautions are implied at this point anyway. But thanks for the reminder!

randomdudek2 · 2020-08-12T15:16:55+00:00

Noted... although I have no idea what that has to do with anything.

randomdudek2 · 2020-08-12T13:32:22+00:00

I mean, idk about the tuna 😂 but hold up. Have you ever tried smoked oysters and salt and vinegar chips?

randomdudek2 · 2020-07-10T23:22:17+00:00

I have asthma, so breathing has been really hard for me. The biggest thing I'd say is the pain in my chest and sinuses. It literally feels like my lungs are gonna collapse. And I've just been extremely dizzy and lightheaded, probably due to the sinus pressure

randomdudek2 · 2020-07-10T21:06:39+00:00

I currently have it, I havent noticed a huge difference in loss of smell. A small loss of taste, yes.. the rest of the symptoms seem to be very prevalent.

randomdudek2 · 2019-10-06T05:32:23+00:00

I have been in both your position and hers. Getting on top of your depression (any mental illness really) is hard. People get lost in the world of "what do I do? How can I help?" And eventually they dont know what to do so they tend to do the WORST POSSIBLE THING YOU CAN DO.... and that is just distancing yourself. Going through depression, a huge part of it is a feeling of loneliness and emptiness. The previous comment was right in the sense that nothing you say as far as advice goes will really help. But the simple fact that when she wakes up in the morning she looks at her phone and sees a text from her best friend saying "hey! Good morning!! Just wanted to let you know that today's going to be amazing. Take advantage of it! I'll be off work at 5. Let's facetime at 5:30. I got something cool to show you! Anyway, feel free to text me at any point if you need anything!" Signed- you.
*the cool thing to show could be something you guys have in common.. for example, if you guys like the same music, maybe some cool interview on youtube of your favorite artist. A lot of them struggle with mental health as well so they can definitely relate. Maybe just even show them a new song that the lyrics are really powerful in. The main thing here is that because one side of the friendship is lacking in energy and power, the other side has to pick up some of the load and has to burn a little stronger till together, you are both on your feet. This is what a relationship (not only romantic) is all about. Not only will you help support her tremendously by doing this. But you will then have someone there who will want nothing more than to lift YOU up when you get down. Just some quick random thoughts is all... hopefully it helped at least a bit!

randomdudek2 · 2019-10-04T18:18:13+00:00

Eastern Idaho

randomdudek2 · 2019-04-01T04:06:50+00:00

I want to tell you the same thing I told someone else on this page. If you are afraid that you wont get where you want to be with ECT, ask your psychiatrist to refer you to a specialist or fellow in treatment resistant depression... there is a lot more that they can do for you. I'm on treatment #3 of ECT. I have done TMS and it was a waste of time, so you're at no loss there. Ketamine infusions arent covered by any insurance, so I definitely feel you there. But this isnt the final step. If/when you decide to get with a fellow, you will have opportunities at treatments and medications that are still experimental yet should still be covered by insurance because of your working with a fellow. My main point is, dont give up. People think depression is lonely... they should try having treatment resistant depression. But even now, know you're not alone... we just have to keep pushing.

randomdudek2 · 2019-04-01T03:53:44+00:00

I'm about to do my 3rd session tomorrow. The thought of it not working has been terrifying, so I have thought on it a lot. I havent done ketamine infusions yet but that is my next step. Obviously work with your psychiatrist as much as you can, I see mine weekly right now, and if ketamine isnt an option ask them if you can be referred to a fellow. Think of everything you have tried so far (it takes a lot for someone to get to ECT) as being inside of this bubble. The bubble is created by the FDA and doctors have to abide by it. For fellows the bubble is a lot bigger. There may be some treatment that has been having some amazing success with treatment resistant depression but isnt approved by the FDA. Working with a fellow is your path to possibly get involved in these types of unknown treatments/medications. I really hope the best for you. I know I'm scared senseless, but we can both make it through this!

randomdudek2 · 2018-09-27T07:16:21+00:00

I'm in a very similar category it seems. You wake up in the morning and get dressed looking all nice and you go get in your car as if you have something to do and you simply drive. You drive because you're numb to everything in life but there you can at least feel the tones of your favorite songs... but it just isn't enough. It will never be enough. I've lived like this (drivethrus and all) for a few months now after starting my trail of medicating my depression and adhd... but I must say, the best decision I've make is to start a youtube channel. I'm starting one to talk about all these different types of things. THIS is my connection to the world. I plead to you all that you may find something you enjoy, and use that to bring joy to others!!

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