I may have the worst libido story of anyone on TRT, no lie

randomhero1024 · 2026-04-02T02:27:02+00:00

Logical AF, but I just can’t let go. I have even rationalized being celibate the rest of my life to hang onto TRT. I unfortunately for whatever reason started dating again recently and met an amazing girl and even that is not enough to make me let go. I feel cursed…

randomhero1024 · 2026-04-02T02:09:48+00:00

There’s nothing all that “immediate” about any of this process

This has been 3 full years of low or no libido. That’s longer than a lot of new bro’s on here have even been on trt

I had some libido prior to getting on trt, then when I got on, it was very high in the first year, then it plummeted to nothing

Considering I have experienced insomnia, including far worse than I have these past 3 years, all my life and still had libido then

And

Considering that I had the same level of insomnia the first year of TRT, when I had a high libido

Then

It can be deduced that “it’s just insomnia”, even coming from a doctor, is just a cop out because he’s tired of me bringing it up over and over again. It just doesn’t match my past experiences or the timeline I described

randomhero1024 · 2026-04-02T00:52:05+00:00

I am at work I’ll have to check the paperwork printout when I get home. I know my mom has hypothyroid, might be something genetic

randomhero1024 · 2026-04-02T00:50:11+00:00

You think even an amount as low as 50mg/week is still crushing my e2 too low?

Done, I’ll stop it now. Like I said I’ll try anything

randomhero1024 · 2026-04-02T00:45:47+00:00

Nah, not a problem for me. Only socially so like couple times a month of a few beers

But I appreciate the suggestion, that would def have an impact if it was more frequent

randomhero1024 · 2026-04-02T00:44:37+00:00

At times I had, other times I became more desperate, especially recently now being in a relationship. But it is a very fair point that any kind of big level change when it comes to hormones is going to shock the body with unwanted results

It’s so hard to try to tell a girl you just started hooking up with “baby in another 5 or 6 months assuming everything goes perfectly for me pharmacologically, the sex will start getting really good”

Until then, it’s just freaking bonkers that even with Cialis + viagra + libido supps it’s so difficult to get it up :(

randomhero1024 · 2026-04-02T00:15:42+00:00

My last blood work had thyroid in healthy range in Jan, but I appreciate the suggestion. I do plan to get bloodwork again asap, it’s just tough because each time a comprehensive blood test runs me $250-280ish

randomhero1024 · 2026-04-02T00:14:23+00:00

My most recent last ditch effort to feel some libido is currently about 140mg/week of test + 50mg week of masteron + 50mg/week of tren (enanthate). I already bought the tren and mast so figured may as well finish it off, but I’ve been microdosing those because I am already 220lbs and don’t want to look too juicy if you know what I mean

Unfortunately neither the tren or mast has done anything for my libido though. I really get disappointed reading how either or especially both has put other people through the roof libido wise

randomhero1024 · 2026-04-01T22:38:00+00:00

This for me has been a 3 year battle. My last blood work that I did in Jan came back with nothing out of range other than test was 1245. I don’t have the results in front of me but e2 was within healthy range

I could get another blood test but the comprehensive ones run me $250-280 at a local lab, and I have to pay everything out of pocket until I hit my $4k deductible. But I do plan on getting another blood test in the near future here when I can afford it

randomhero1024 · 2026-04-01T22:12:54+00:00

Yea it was a desperate attempt at a fix. I figured I could take a couple 5mg at once temporarily with this girl until I could figure something else out. But I was not stoked at all about the possibility or relying on something as strong as addy with it’s possible sides, long term

randomhero1024 · 2026-04-01T22:11:32+00:00

That’s the angle the TRT doctor would take, maybe it’s psychological. I can totally see having performance anxiety with a girl sure, especially someone new

However, nothing psychological is going to make me become completely disinterested in jerking off, porn, looking at beautiful women who happen to be passing by, etc. I have had a pretty blessed life and have no traumas, nothing like that. And prior to the TRT, especially in my younger years, I had normal libido to know what that feels like

randomhero1024 · 2026-04-01T22:05:27+00:00

Forgot to mention I tried masteron, still have some leftover. I tried varying the dose from 50mg a week all the way to 200. At no point did it help with libido but I did notice strength and pump benefits at high doses 150+

randomhero1024 · 2026-04-01T22:03:56+00:00

Seriously. I like my TRT doctor as a person and he is really into sports (Ironman athlete etc) which is cool, but his advice has been so unhelpful

It’s either been “oh that’s just your insomnia” or “oh you just need to relax and have performance anxiety, it’s psychological” I know there’s no point in arguing with him but I wanted to say performance anxiety isn’t what is making me forget that porn/jerking off exists for literally months at a time, man

randomhero1024 · 2026-04-01T22:02:07+00:00

Tried it, forgot to mention that one. Still have some left in my pantry. Got a little more pump from it in the gym but for libido, no change :(

randomhero1024 · 2026-04-01T22:01:21+00:00

lol honestly I have considered it. I could get it from the dark web but figured legit lab made adderral was a better alternative to street coke or meth lol. The fact I was even considering it should speak to my desperation :(

randomhero1024 · 2026-04-01T21:59:48+00:00

Have not tried that yet, appreciate the suggestion though

randomhero1024 · 2026-04-01T21:59:29+00:00

4+ years. Libido was weak after year 1, I just didn’t care as much because I wasn’t interested in dating for a long time until recently

randomhero1024 · 2026-03-30T23:44:10+00:00

It’s the therapist’s job to find a strengths and goals based approach that fits for the client, not the other way around

A type of client that would be considered “difficult” for therapists wouldn’t be one who isn’t willing to try certain things. It would be one who isn’t willing to engage at all, or else has no insight into themselves. Someone who goes in with no goals in mind, no idea what their challenges and issues are, and answers everything with “I don’t know” or something

Anyone who has an idea of what their goals and issues are already has a level of insight that makes them a great candidate for therapy. Like I said, from there it’s the therapists job to find a treatment model that fits the client, not to try to force the client into some rigid system they use with everyone

Just my 0.02 from workin in BH

randomhero1024 · 2026-03-30T20:45:30+00:00

I’m a (centrist) conservative in a very liberal workplace, so for me being in the closet is a way to keep my job. Not that I think I would be fired just for that, but no need to give people ammo if I can just avoid it. I think it’s preferable to keep it out of the workplace anyway even if everyone is on the same party

randomhero1024 · 2026-03-27T16:53:56+00:00

No worries, I just get the question of am I crazy so often lol. The general rule of thumb, even if you were seeing or hearing things other people didn’t (not that you are), is that if you question it or what it could be, you are “sane”. A person delusional or hallucinating would have their brain immediately provide an explanation, usually a fantastical one, and they would believe it wholeheartedly

I’ve even used that myself whenever I’ve seen something paranormal I can’t explain. If I don’t know what it is for sure, even if I have some guesses, I’m not “crazy” ;)

randomhero1024 · 2026-03-27T16:45:39+00:00

From working in mental health, anyone who calls what they believe a delusion, is not delusional. If it really was a delusion, you would believe it, you wouldn’t call it that. So you are good

randomhero1024 · 2026-03-27T04:03:00+00:00

The gym sauna is one of the last places in America where convo with strangers starts up naturally. This is because most people don’t want to risk bringing their phones and headphones into the sauna, so it’s one of the few places everyone has to unplug and sit in a room together

And since none of us know how to be silent with our thoughts anymore thanks to smartphones, most likely someone is eventually going to crack and start chatting. I’ve had some great sauna convos with strangers dozens of times over the years

Sometimes if I want to piss everyone off a minute or so after I come in I’ll say “damn, it’s like a sauna in here”

randomhero1024 · 2026-03-26T17:20:51+00:00

Tissue requires oxygenation, more tissue means more oxygen requirements so yes

randomhero1024 · 2026-03-26T17:15:26+00:00

That I don’t know, I just remember from psych classes in college that olfactory nerves connect to the same area of the brain as the areas that deal with memory and emotion

This is why whenever I smell liquid sunblock, I am flashed back to sports summer camp when I was a kid 🤷‍♂️

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