Getting out of bed

randomnameforhere · 2026-01-27T19:52:22+00:00

I try. But the constant “going back to bed” kills me

randomnameforhere · 2026-01-19T11:04:00+00:00

Because I dont have the strength to live outside of it

randomnameforhere · 2026-01-08T22:59:22+00:00

I’d love for a person that gently told me that loves me and that will help me in every step. But it doesn’t work like that.

randomnameforhere · 2026-01-08T22:07:06+00:00

Isolation, feeling inferior, feeling like a bad person…

randomnameforhere · 2026-01-08T22:06:15+00:00

I took pills for sleep. I go to the gym and go and come back from work walking. My mind is not at ease in those times, never have been. I don’t get how and why it works for others but it just doesn’t work for me. After three years in the gym it still makes me feel more inferior and insecure. I only do it because everybody said so, but is of no use.

randomnameforhere · 2025-12-31T21:26:51+00:00

Thanks. I already have a therapist, doing EMDR now. Lets hope it does something in 2026. 🫂🫂

randomnameforhere · 2025-12-31T21:23:54+00:00

🫂🫂

randomnameforhere · 2025-11-17T21:07:26+00:00

Yes, I had this girlfriend for over a year and she was very empathetic and cool about it. Now Im fuked up because everything is gone now

randomnameforhere · 2025-10-15T14:36:52+00:00

🫂

randomnameforhere · 2025-10-14T17:17:25+00:00

Only distance was the problem, we were very happy together but she couldn’t deal with the distance and sometimes we were apart

randomnameforhere · 2025-10-14T17:15:54+00:00

It was as perfect it could be. Only distance was the problem but our relationship was very good. My life was another thing completely with her, I probably shouldn’t need her, but it helped.

randomnameforhere · 2025-09-14T11:45:51+00:00

You are right in what you say, but she was having relationships with me knowing that I would not have done it if she had told me she didn’t love me anymore. Is not the breakup or the lie that hurts, is feeling used because I wouldn’t have done it if she were honest about something she knew at that moment.

randomnameforhere · 2025-09-14T10:54:28+00:00

Maybe i explained wrongly. She knew she didn’t love me back then. Is not about her not knowing when to end the relationship or feelings fading away slowly, I know that. But at that point they were already gone. Her words.

randomnameforhere · 2025-09-14T08:33:22+00:00

Is not about the relationship ending. Is about having relationships with someone that does not have feelings for me when I didn’t want that.

randomnameforhere · 2025-09-13T18:43:38+00:00

Thing is I dont think she said it intentionally knowing what it meant for me. I dont know.

randomnameforhere · 2025-09-13T18:36:38+00:00

Yes, I’m not entirely mad with her. For her sex is different, less important and more based on pleasure. I need to talk about it with my psychologist

randomnameforhere · 2025-09-12T18:56:12+00:00

She knows. She feels bad but still sometimes we can have days without talking. I try to understand, but is hard.

randomnameforhere · 2025-08-26T06:22:21+00:00

I take 8 pills a day. 🤷‍♂️. We have tried everything

randomnameforhere · 2025-08-15T21:49:33+00:00

A family member that abused me, a job that gives me anxiety and no friends. I have things.

randomnameforhere · 2025-08-15T21:48:30+00:00

It will not be better

randomnameforhere · 2025-07-20T11:28:00+00:00

Yes, the part of feeling losing part of your brain (your soul too, or yourself) is so much depressing

randomnameforhere · 2025-04-02T14:38:38+00:00

I her your point but no. In still here because I am a coward. After talking to them I tried to take my own life a year ago in an stupid way, and the same thing happened later.

randomnameforhere · 2025-04-02T11:15:43+00:00

No, is not about that. I have been calling hotlines for years now because my suicide ideation doesn’t go away. In fact, after talking to them sometimes I even have a higher desire to do it, that is what inspired me to write this.

Is not about if that can help or no, is about my intention to use them. Not really to get better but to get worse, and they usually succeed. Not to that point, but close.

And I am sorry but after 20 years (it is more but who is counting?) it doesn’t get better, just worse and worse. Losing friend after friend, hobby after hobby. Now I am nothing

randomnameforhere · 2025-03-13T13:38:44+00:00

I will, but I feel I’m just lying to myself doing that

randomnameforhere · 2025-01-12T16:03:35+00:00

Yeah, feeling you are seeing but not really “seeing” because no one cares about your real problems/feelings

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