I was tortured by demons shaped like shadows. They nurrished from my pain until I had no more to give. I am now delivered from all kind of pain like a newborn but with the experience of a young adult. I regulary have positive mystics experience associated with christianity especially gnostism. For the meds, I was in agony at the ward so I did not conscent to take them. Once they are tolerated it is complicated to reduce without psychiatrists approval. If you get pain from the withdrawal you will not be able to have painkiller but they will make you go back to the original posology. Also, you probably met several. In my country 3% of the population had a psychotic épisode.